Discoveries

2012-01-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

2012-01-17T18:33:00.000+08:00

random

2012-01-17T18:22:00.003+08:00

wasn't really that bored but i still made my way to G and S's blog.

Came across S's one.

Gotta admit that she is quite talented in poetry.

Practically was laughing at her profile description.

She speaks of herself so well.

Then G's one.

She is still keep it going.

I finally understand the meaning of "a picture speaks a thousand words"

With just a picture a post, it conveys many feelings.

Anyway, seems that i am the most lazy one here!! Gotta learn from them!! =DD

randoms

2011-11-20T00:08:00.004+08:00

hello. I am here? Hahas. It has been many many months since i stepped my foot here. I am not really a blog person but i do enjoy reading people's blog. Why not i introduce to you my favourite blogs as an ice break.

For the past few months i was doing shopping and learning new things. One of them which i think would be quite useful would be http://www.frmheadtotoe.com/

There are quite a number of makeup tips to learn from. And for those who enjoy online shopping, she does put up links for the items you see inside her videos. You can just purchase it online. I cannot describe to you much since i haven't buy online products.

She also do recommendation on what to get for what kind of season. Although is pretty much not of a use in singapore but she is simply plain awesome.

I really hope she don't mind me stealing some very pretty photos of her on her blog.

If you are interested, you can follow her on twitter or "like" her on facebook. =D

Another blog where i am keeping close view would be elle and blair's blog. They are two cool american sisters who teach you how to stay pretty and nice. Just like Jen (headtotoe owner), they do give tutorials on how to apply makeups, what to wear for diferent occasions, what is a must have for that period of time. The only difference i would point out would be that Jen's makeup is more suitable for asians whereby blair's is more suitable with lighter skin tone.

however, don't ignore the sisters' blog because they do give tips on clothes, hair etc.

http://www.elleandblair.com/

Anyway, this page is introducing some new clothes which are "in". I did some read up on it. They are really nice, so do buy some simliar clothes home fast yea? =DD

I hope these two blods which i recommend would be of much use to all of you pretty ones out there!!! Stay pretty!! =DD

SP String Ensemble

2011-01-01T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

I am here to promote the upcoming concert of SP String Ensemble. Although i am not very sure if there will be anyone reading but i just post. Hahas.

Singapore Polytechnic String Ensemble Annual Concert
Location:NAFA Lee Foundation Theatre, 151 Bencoolen Street, Singapore 189656
Time:7:00PM Friday, January 21st

Please do come and give your fullest support. If you are interested and you are the lucky one who come here by chance, please do leave your name, your email, the number of tickets you need in the tagboard and i will contact you through email directly. Please do take note that nonsenses will not be entertain!! =DD

Cheers
Happy New Year
AWL~

Christmas season

2010-12-22T21:35:00.001+08:00

Hello people.

How is this Christmas season for all of you? Are you trying to get Christmas presents for your family and friends?

Oh well, this Chirstmas season is a bit rush for me as compared to the previous years. Do all fo you think so too? Or is it just me? I am dashing around trying to purchase as many as gifts as i can for my family.

I get pretty excited for Christmas to be frank. Not the gifts i am expecting but the very pretty decorations everywhere. Orchard's decoration is one of the best but i rarely got the chance to really get down there and admire the lightings. I do hope i can take out some time from my extremely packed timetable.

Anyway, 3 more days to Christmas.

HOHOHO people. Better be nice, perhaps Santa will give you a big gift this year!!! I am awaiting for mine!! =DDD

To end this post, let's enjoy a song from Alvin and the Chipmunks; "Chirstmas, don't be late"

Don't be late, my dear Santa!! =DD

Similarities

2010-12-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

Spent an hour or two at some short distant shopping mall with KY and my awesome family. The main motive of travelling there was to catch a glimpse of the red monster, elmo. KY loves it like any other kids. However, since i self-proclaimed that i aint not a kid, i went to indulge myself in books.

Okay, i admit i am not those bookworm kind of people. in fact i went with MOTIVE!!

HEY!! i rarely have motivation for any stuff. Please be pleased that i am quite motivated for crochet.

I have promised a couple of them that i would make them pretty scarves for christmas but what's best is i haven't start any of them yet. Oh my, i am really way behind time!! Santa's coming in like 7 days!!! 1 week to be exact.

I am way off track. Okay, I borrowed some crochet books. Had a hard time picking them up for my ability is far way so limited. KY's dad helped me with the books. When he browsed through the covers, he gave that awe in wonderment look.

"YOU READ THESE BOOKS JUST LIKE MY WIFE!!!"

OH MY!!! I promise i did not do that on purpose. You know, sometimes you just got to admit that all these little things do run in the blood!! =DDD

Random thoughts

2010-12-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

What are you going to do if you are waiting for the traffic at a junction?
Are you going to stand at the side of the road and wait for the never ending traffic?
Are you going to dash across the road, praying hard that you will survive from the abrupt decision you made?

Think.
Make decisions that you will not regret.

updates

2010-12-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

Oh man!!! I am seriously out of voice. Self declared mute uh!!! Hahas. Oh well, perhaps that's a good news for those who don't like my voice!! They can enjoy my ultimate deep and manly voice!! =DD (for the time being only)

hey

2010-11-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.
I am well aware that i had not been around for so long. I am searching for motive to keep this little space going. There are always tons of work to do which i am not sure where they pop out from, but they just exist. Today which i assume is a special day (other than anniversary), i have the time to browse through blogs whom i am following. It has been months since i last went to read their blogs!! Everyone has been a hardworking writer except for me. They updated their achievements, suffers, happiness etc. Far too much for me to read one by one.

Speaking of blogs, i went to my secondary 2 class blog today. Out of curiosity, i clicked the links one by one. Most of them changed their URL except for V, who stopped blogging in the month of Feb. I suppose everyone has no time for online dairies anymore. It is so time consuming especially when everyone is having As, MSTs blah blah. Bet projects and revisions are killing everyone's time and mood. All well, hope they will all come back after their major exams.

Before i forget about this, i have promise to treat the little ones ice cream for their awesome contribution to the band. But sad to say, i don't have time to spare. Since, promises are NOT meant to be broken. I will try to dig out some precious time of time to bomb my pocket.

I shall end it here then. It's not too good to keep long post for warm ups right? hahas. See you readers when i come back again. For the time being, just bear with this short and nonsensical post!! =DD

random finding

2010-08-03T20:37:00.001+08:00

I was browsing around and i saw this chinese note, in which i feel is very true!! =DD

1、如果你嫌她做的飯不好吃，請自己學烹調去，做飯不是女人的義務。
2、如果你嫌她長得不漂亮，請先自己照照鏡子。
3、如果你嫌她沒氣質，是你沒發現而已。
4、如果你嫌她不會打扮，請看看你每個月有多少錢花在她的身上。
5、如果你嫌她經常看你的短信，請檢討一下你能給她安全感嗎？
6、如果你嫌她攢錢不多，請看看她花了多少精神和時間在你身上。
7、如果你嫌她經常哭哭涕涕，請反省一下是誰傷了她的心。
8、如果你嫌她不體諒你，請問你體諒她嗎？
9、如果你嫌她經常發脾氣，只能證明你真的把她氣壞了。

Cool right?!

Ponder

2010-07-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

I am having a rather heavy heart. There are questions that i kept asking myself which i could not even find answers to it. I feel so worthless. It is like i am not those kind that can excel academically. Neither i am not those kind that use music to express myself. I am like a nobody.

Seriously, for some nobody, do i really deserve what i have today?
I have a bunch of very nice friends that support and standby me.
I have a nice, hot boyfriend.
I have my lovely daddy.
Cute family.
But do i really deserve all this?
=(((

Think

2010-05-09T00:36:00.001+08:00

That's how great a mum's love can be.

http://www.sacbee.com/static/newsroom/swf/april07/mother/

Happy Mother's Day.

2010-05-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

random

2010-04-14T16:23:00.001+08:00

Listen up people!!
WE are going to go out on the 18th April!!
MINYAN, VERNON, JIA YING, CHIN SENG!!

PS: i miss Jia Qi. =((

relationship status

2010-04-05T23:50:00.003+08:00

I found something nice and fun. BT and i have been discussing about this.

Below is the chart:

We were trying to put one of them as our status. What is yours?

my reflection

2010-03-30T16:16:00.002+08:00

Reading people's profile, browsing through blogs. Then you will discover that actually things have already been taken over.

Remember those time when you were in secondary school, those innocent times, those fun times. But after you moved on to other places, things that took over will be your tertiary friends. Over that, you will have your 'own' fun times, yet not so innocent ones. And when time is up, you will move to another place.

Time just pass and never return. And one day, when you are as bored as me, you will read through all of their journals, see through all their profile, you will soon realise that you are long forgotten. It is bound to happen when your presence is longer needed.

Yes, you may feel sad and awful. But time still moves on...

lil feeling

2010-03-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

Oh well. I went back to my secondary school a couple of days ago. In fact 2 to 3 weeks away from now. I just have this weird feeling. All along, i have sense of belonging to the school. However, this feeling seems to creep away from me as time pass by. All the unfamiliar faces make me feels like a stranger.

This very sian feeling kept me accompany almost through the whole journey. BUT BUT, when i saw my band teachers, it's gone. I heard from PS that Kat and Nat became "untouchable" people. Meaning,

MOOD = UNTOUCHABLE
MOVEMENT = UNTOUCHABLE

However, when they saw me, they gave happy faces!! Even when i snapped a few shot of Nat, she wasn't angry a bit. Kat asked to take a photo with me!! Even so, he 'whined' and complained how rare it is to see me in school.

To be frank i was pretty shocked. But nevertheless, i was delightful!! Perhaps, i should get another date with PS and go back to school again.

happy

2010-03-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

Now i am super happy!! One of my ex-co commitee blogged something for me. Today i was really upset when i see someone. Worst still, when we were talking about my role, that particular person began her very own conversation with her own friend. I was always affected by oter's action, no doubt.

For break, a few of us hid in the toilet and gossip. I shared my story and they all support me!! i am really so so touched!! And now,

miss 7 post this for me
http://open-up-moii-soul.blogspot.com/2010/03/pure-jealousy-i-would-say.html
THANK YOU 7

Read it up when you readers are free. i shall end it here. i am really sleepy!!! TEEHEE!! =DD

2010-02-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

When what's left is just commitment...
will you still love me?

2010-01-17T13:52:00.002+08:00

After all these years, i know i am well-protected by my family. I always feel that a family wont scatter, even if it does, a bigger one will be behind, to give support. However, little did i expect, my broken shelter becomes an "evidence" and a reason for divorce. I dont like this kind of feeling. I am serious.

untitled.

2010-01-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

cute.

2010-01-14T19:17:00.004+08:00

Again, i toured WL's blog. By means i found this link and there i found many inspiring yet funny posts. One of them is this.

2010-01-10T23:48:00.001+08:00

I find myself really hard to please these days.

How?

I can't even please myself.

I don't even know what i know.

Tell me.

Please.

how?!

2010-01-10T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hahahs. I really had great fun with best friend today!!! Love him to the core. I wondered if he had great time.. Hope he do!! =))

Heard that he is coming down tomorrow. Really want to see his "ugly" face but i am going to have a busy day tomorrow. Church and mummy's place!! =(( Gotta see how first. =((

Recently i had scolding from grandma again. She is nagging like why WX didn't go home with me anymore!!! (GOR GOR HUH!!! YOUR FAULT HUH.) Then she assumed that i misbehaved that's why bro gab don't want to go home with me!! How sad. (GOR GOR!!!! HOW??! )

Going to go for ITC on the 22nd to the 24th. Aiya!! Going to miss another family gathering. Oh, and cousin Mar's birthday celebration. As well as church service for me to repent.

Yeah, i managed to catch KY today. She has grown so big already!!! But her smile stays as lovely.She behaves like koala bear, hugging her mummy. Though i managed to keep her smile going, but she still refuses to let me carry her. Hope that she don'tbehaves so dao the next time!! =)))

i want to be your best friend forever.. =))

nonsensical

2010-01-07T01:31:00.004+08:00

I feel like i am some young childish kid that throw temper before i can get everything right.
I am sorry, best friend. Sorry for your change of mood.

I really don't know why i have this guilt in me.
Towards best friend yea, TOTALLY MY FAULT.
Towards eye candy, i don't feel good make him help me donate stuff.
Towards seven, though we didn't really make a pact that i will help out the booth with her. I feel like i choose her over lessons.
Towards SQ, i don't know. I just feel guilty.
Towards eunice, i scolded her for no apparent reason

What's changing me? Or i am all along like this?

i think i should just avoid people
i am just too good at making them unhappy.
ask yourself
are you worth to be some best friend?

2010-01-03T15:30:00.001+08:00

BEST FRIEND FOREVER!!! <3

just to make you happy, eng teng. =PP

untitled

2010-01-01T15:29:00.007+08:00

I AM SO CONFUSED!!! =@@
i am stuck in this very weird situation. i am a best friend and also an eye candy. L has a female best friend and an eye candy. B too has a female best friend and an eye candy. sadly, normally in this kind oif situation, eye candy wins. but i am not going to let it come true for L's case. Bcos i know how much it hurts for best friend to bear. it is really very painful. B is going to get his ideal girl. he mentioned how wonderful the girl is. he said he's gonna be some people who are full of happiness. he treasures me and perhaps i should treasure him too. more perhaps.

post to my one and only best friend

2009-12-31T23:17:00.004+08:00

To my dear
BENJAMIN TAN ENG TENG,

eh.

i am really going to make it very simple

and

full of my accent.

i will still adore you my best friend.

even though you always make me very angry and sad

and it seems like changing my happy mood is your forte

i will really try to be happy okay?

i really promise.

you please dont change okay?

i dont know what happen to you after clubbing

but it kinda hurt me when you say you dont want to talk to me

and said that i am kinda holy.

but but

i will still love you

and treat you like my best friend

my last warning

you cannot hide away from me okay?

never do that

you are my gift

the precious gift from God

i dont know whether God tells you this

but you are the best gift ever.

i mean it

seriously.

stupid girl.

end of 2009

2009-12-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

I have plenty to say and do. I want to thank lots of people. in fact, 2009 is the best year i had ever had. I know my best friend, I had good terms with my cousin, i entered poly etc. In fact i want to maintain these relationships next year. I still want to be best friend with my best friend. I want everything to be the same as now. I sincerely hope so.

My best boxing day ever.

2009-12-27T15:53:00.003+08:00

On 26th, i spent my day out with my best friend. Went to quite a number of places and he irritated me by asking whether i enjoyed my day out.

First point-
FERRER PARK.
Went there to broaden my view and of course, embarrassed him by calling him "DADDY" in the public. City square is going to be some very nice shopping centre in years to come!! Around 10 storeys high!! I was kind of happy and high when i saw it. After which, we took train to our second destination.

Second point-
BOON KENG
How do i say this. I was cheated by the name. I saw this "shopping centre" and i happily convinced that it is air-conditioned which plenty of pretty shops. However, i was proven wrong. It was just another dry market and i can hardly differentiate between market and shopping centre. Anyway, we decided to lunch there before catching a bus in the rain.

Third point-
CINELEISURE
I accompanied BT to get a present for his brother. In the end, we got nothing. However, while waiting for bus, we started to show violence!! Hahas. Best part ever!!

Fourth point-
VIVOCITY
The point where i feel like commiting suicide. I walked the whole place until i lost count the numbers of steps i laid there. No forgetting, we saw Matt. He helped us in getting a ball. The both of us shared a bottle of vodka; the third time in the row i have been drinking. Send Matt to the bus stop and both of us went back to Converse to get the ball. I was really scaring BT by not talking to him!!

Fifth point-
GEYLANG
The worst place to get to in fact. We took a bus back to Boon Keng then take another bus there. Apart from those bus-ing, we still walked like a few minutes. I really got to admit that BT's sixth sense is good. He got the hitch that the path we were walking is the "good" side and it turned out to be true!!! (Geylang has this odd and even number rule.) We were like walking on the safe side yet there were still "chicken" around. BT experienced the 'being asked' feel and i got my butt stared. Indulge durians and roti john which tasted like heaven.

After everything, we trained back home. Perhaps i am insane but i hope to go back to the "chicken" paradise again!!! =PPP

amazing.

2009-12-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

I popped by WL's blog a few days back and discovered something real fun.

Guys are assholes.
If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed.
If you’re quiet, you don’t care.
If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy.
If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you.
When you do love him, he leaves.
If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease.
If you do, you’re easy.
You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating.
If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him.
If you lecture him, you just want to argue.
If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’
If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore.
If he breaks it, it’s because he had to.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over.
If he cheats, he wants another chance.
Guys drink to forget about girls;
girls drink to think back about the guy.
When guys are in love, they become poor;
when girls are in love, they become pretty.
Guys can forget, but can’t forgive;
girls can forgive, but can’t forget.
When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.
Guys wish to be her first love;
girls wish to be his last.

isn't this amazing?

RAmblings

2009-12-18T12:28:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i was really mad at you.
I really want to bite you off.
I want to scold you upside down for what you have done to my junior.

However, i have decided not to do so.
Not because i am scare,
Not because i am weak.

That is because i don't want to behave like you
It will not make any difference between you and me.
I will be another bitch if i do so.

SELF-PROTECTION!!

discoveries at discoveries.

2009-12-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

I have just make a discovery. I think i have neglected this little place for sometime. It is not that i don't have anything great to write or to keep in memories, it is just that i am plain lazy. I wonder if everyone has the same feeling as i do, but i feel that the people coming and going seems to decrease. In fact, this place has lost its time. However, the hit counter proves me wrong. I have noted that it jumped more than 20 numbers and also, RAINE PIG PIG ANG did leave a message.

RAINE ANG,
I AM REALLY VERY TOUCHED OKAY, THOUGH THE STUFF YOU COMMENT CAN JUST SHEER JUNK!! HAHAHAS!! JOKING!!

BEFORE I GET THIS OUT OF MY HEAD...
LYNETTE NG!!! HAHAHAS. I WAS BUSY HUNTING DOWN YOUR WHEREABOUTS UNTIL I SAW RAINE'S PICTURES. I REALLY GOT TO GET YOUR NUMBER AND TEXT YOU REAL SOON.

I shall call it off for now. =)))

Random thoughts

2009-12-05T23:04:00.003+08:00

I dont know why. But i feel so blessed all of a sudden!!! I have a best friend that will comfort whenever i feel so down. A act cute brother that will take all my nonsense, my secondary school buddies that will drag me out every now and then. I feel so so blessed.

First, my best friend. I really hate to admit this but i will really miss him when he go to Shanghai. I think i will cry but i kept telling him that i will be an idiot if i really cry. He often make me angry and happy. I don't know why. Perhaps is his big bad mouth. Keep on saying that i am an airport. That is mean lah!!! AND AND!!! He often says i am not cute, not hot, not pretty.
!@#()(*&^%$#@!
What kind of best friend is this?? Go and bang the wall lah!! Hahahs. =PP I always have things to tell him!!!
However, however, he is always the first to make me happy. Telepathy!! (sometimes will fail. )hahas =PP

Second, My poor brother. I don't know why. I love to throw my nonsense at him. Like 1 month don't talk, 1 year no interaction. Go and find his nobody friend. Hahas. Then i will merely laugh at his weak salvation. He will always give way to me, then try to make me happy even though most of the time it is not working. Hahhas. I enjoy his patting but sometimes he is so stingy thta he wont even bother to send a single message. Then try to make up some excuses that he thinks that i will believe whole heartedly.Sadly, I will rebut him until he is lost of words!!! =PPPPP

Lastly, My secondary school buddies. I am so looking forward!!!! I am meeting them this coming friday!!! I haven't been seeing them for so long. I was ill on the day we suppose to meet. I feel so guilty!! Supposingly,we should be danging our legs in the steamboat restaurant eating for hours but was sadly cancelled.
ALL BECAUSE OF ME!!!
Now another meeting coming up!!! Repenting time coming too!!! I really miss their very very cute faces. =(((( Hope that i can meet them really really often!!!! =))))

RAmblings

2009-11-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

Christmas is just a month away!!! Super look forward to it!!!

CHRISTMAS COME QUICKLY OKAY??
YOU KNOW I WANT YOUR ARRIVAL BADLY!!!!

awful surprise

2009-11-20T18:18:00.002+08:00

One beautiful day... I sneaked into a lecture!!! It is not mine but my WX's , BW's, D^2's!!! It was like so fun!! Imagine those big big eyes that stick on you when you when you enter the lecture hall. BUT BUT!!! I got do work!! I copy lecture notes for D^2 and gave my utimate most attention!! I treat it like my lecture in fact in my lecture i didn't even behave that good!! =PPP

Not to forget. The lecturer asked why haven't he seen me before. Managed to crap through the conversation!! Just hope he doesn't mind!! =))

Shocked WX sucessfully!! Hahahs. =PP

Random thoughts

2009-09-29T18:23:00.003+08:00

It has been a year, specific 364 days.

I thought i like you, i thought i know you.

But is now, i found out that it's memories i have been living on.

I always fear to look at your pictures

All along i thought i will cry so so badly

But today,

I took a step forward.

I peeped at your online diary

I browse through the photos you took

"Is this the person you love?"

"Is this the person you long to have as future?"

Surprisingly,

The answer is no.

The face, which i feel that i will remember

Now, it looks unfamiliar.

The face i have in memory is not like that

How silly.

The birthday gift from me....

My word is my bond!!!

2009-09-28T12:11:00.004+08:00

I learnt of this in church yesterday.

"MY WORD IS MY BOND"

I live up my name to keep my promise which is to treat Jiaying to lunch. We dined for $34.15 at Fish and Co!! =@@

FOr now, i shall let the pictures do the story telling.

Waiting...

Act cute-ing...

Cheeros!!!

Yummy!!

=@@

Annoyed face!!

Pretty dear caught me snapping her. =PP

Little Miss Busy...

Apparently, this is the full story!! =))

Kind of lousy though.

random

2009-09-17T23:04:00.004+08:00

DEAR!!!

AIYO!!

I AM REALLY VERY SORRY I LAUGH WHEN I FIRST GOT THE NEWS!!

I THOUGHT YOU WERE PLAYING WITH ME!!

I REALLY DON'T KNOW IT WAS TRUE.

PERHAPS I DID SUSPECT IT WAS BUT I DONT KNOW IT WAS SO SERIOUS.

I FEEL VERY WORRIED AFTER I SAW YOU!!! =((

I KNOW I CANNOT PUT MYSELF TO SLEEP TONIGHT!!

DEAR!!

I REALLY THANK GOD YOU ARE OKAY.

I REALLT PRAISE GOD THAT YOU ARE NOT SEVERE.

YOU MUST REALLY TAKE CARE OKAY?

I WILL TRY TO SEE YOU WHENEVER I AM FREE!!!

REALLY HUH!!

YOU DONT WALK AROUND!!!

REST WELL!! =))

Wanlin's birthday!!

2009-09-15T10:23:00.013+08:00

Many many birthdays are lining up and i feel the pressure of getting birthday presents!!! =PP Celebrated WL's birthday last week. Had much fun indeed. As usual, i was late and made the girls waited for me!! Hehes!! So honoured. Dine at Aston!! I feel that place is just another Swensens. Maybe the price range is lower!! =))

In fact we just went for dinner!! Nothing much in particular!!=PP

That which we sent JY to the bus stop and train home!! I suppose to reach home before 10 but i am still at Jurong at 11!! Since i was late, then take more photos!!

Renee alighted first thus the whole journey left with WL and me!! We were making alot of noise in the bus interchange, many eyes were like looking at us!!! =PP

Just because i can take pictures that successfully fit us in perfectly, I am been called a bimbo by WL!! So bias!! =PP

WL sure look nice in candid!! =PP

Teacher's day!!

2009-09-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

I managed to go back to Kranji at 7.15 in the morning. Insane right? JY thought of it!! Sang the national anthem plus song song!! Really miss the feeling!! It has been like months since i did this. Anyway, Met some of my teachers i really missed!!

Miss Audrey Lee

Ms Natasha

Miss Lim!!

In fact, these are only the three out of the many!! =))

Finally...

I managed to give Andrew his birthday gift which i freaking owed him like 2 months. I bought a miniature saxophone which i really love it!! And also, guitar peaks!! Different colours, differnt thickness!! I admit i was crazy when i was getting his birthday. I suppose his present of the most crazy thing i do.

Caught concert by my juniors!!

Oh!!

I saw LJ!! He was performing!! He looks really really handsome!! Freaking hot when he was dancing. Kind of pity that i didn't manage to get any pictures with him. I must next time. If there is next time!! =))

Went to WL's house after that. Kind of slack there, watch tv, continue to take pictures!! YT was there too!!

Since WL and YT haven't go back, we all go back again!! MY joined us in school later as well. Actually she did not intend to appear but she is left with no choice since we are all there. Lunched with them at Ajisen. Fat came later to pick his darling up halfway through.

A nice nice picture before we went our separate ways.

WL went for job interview

JY went for camp

YT went home to study
MY and i went shopping!! =))

Went to our usual place, IMM. Shop at our favourite stall!! Bought something for Aunty GAB!! BUt i doubt "she" likes it. Still continues to drive me mad. SO angry!! ANyway, spent that day quite well. =PP

SENG's bday celebration

2009-09-02T13:39:00.004+08:00

Went on a birthday celebration with JY, Vernon and CS. Had quite a fun time though. JY and i went for our church service first, followed by my visit to the grandma's place which freaking saddens me. Of course, last but not least, dine at Chinese Garden. JY introduced the place to us. Heard that there is this very nice curry fish head stall and we decided to try it out.

The almost emptied wok. =)

It was really not bad but then first sight of the stall wasn't appealing at all. It seemed that no one patronise the stall. Then Vernon was passing remarks like we should call the mediacorp show to push its business alittle. JY was really behaving like mummy!! She was like helping us with the fish head. She said it was her first time!! Hmm.. She did seem good at it!!

Supposingly CS was not allow to come out with us but JY managed to covince his mother which i don't know how. While she was convincing, Vernon and i were like making a fool out of ourselves. We were joking around and wanted to get CS a buddhist praying cake as a birthday cake for him. Giggled and wanted to make the plan come true. However, CS came. =((

While waiting for him...

CS's timing was good!! The moment he sat, the food was ready.

Captured some unglam moments of the boys tucking in!!

Spitting out the fish bone!! SO SENG!!

Some photo shootings before we all went to Jurong Point to print photos!! =))

Random

2009-08-29T21:54:00.002+08:00

This weekend is kind of boring. KY didn't come. But thank goodness, EK made his way here. If not i will be bored to death. Hahas!! Planned to go to maternal grandma's place tml!! Hope that it would be fun!! JY will be coming!! HAHA!! Racking my brains now. Wonder what can i get for grand mama!! =PP

2009-08-26T11:22:00.002+08:00

CRAP, I AM NOT EVEN STUDYING!!!

Bangs

2009-08-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

To be frank, this is not what i really wanted. Who knows it will turn out to be like that? Too bad then. Make do with it and pray hard that it will grow back.

I really miss Kranji so much. Really want to fly back to school!! I miss KSB. I miss teachers. In fact, i miss my batch of students. Although i don't dare to say but i miss MY badly. I haven't been contacting her and each time i wanted to, i am so afraid that she is angry with me. I feel so guilty. =((

Aunty gab and i have been close!!!YAY!! Hope that this can continue throughout our lifetime!!! =)) Generally, the poly students are having exams!! Feeling stress, i suppose?! I feel like burning my notes. Ken daddy always gives words of encouragment. Though it didn't kind of help most of the time, but the overwhelming happiness feeling do exist!! Had myself tryout in the phrases searching. In the end, i got discouraged and gave up the idea. Perhaps i should persist and perverse.

Oh well,

Better Elaine next time!!

AH!!!

2009-08-03T13:01:00.002+08:00

What a stupid day!! I got insulted. Pardon me for being so impulsive but i just cannot hold it!! Presenation was "damn sian" by Poon. He was cut due to overtime. Me? I was rushed. However, i wasn't overtime but ended early.

Hais!! So angry!!! BUt i am not angry for the ended early part. Some other things boiled me!!

Hope WX reads this and cheer me up later!!!

Killer Week!!

2009-07-30T18:57:00.001+08:00

ELaine has 2 tests almost everyday!! So stress!!! Hope that WX can teach me well!!! Speaking of WX, he is the pig of all pigs!!! He failed to control his student and still put the blame on her!! SO BAD!!! Anyway, Ice Age 3 cheered me up!!!

Was feeling gulity ultimatly!! Hope that this feeling can leave me fast!! If not i will be killed under its hands.

Exams is around the corner!! WIsh her luck!!

Little Miss Busy

2009-07-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

I recalled my nickname given by KSB. Little Miss Busy!! The current life i am leading really proves that i am a miss busy. I had homework almost everyday. I am so going to get drained if this continues. I always feel that i need more sleep but i had enough. Some accumulated sleepless nights i suppose.

I haven't been giving tuition to JQ. So guilty. Our timetables just cannot fit. He is having prelim and i bet he needs to study. Well well, i would be elated if he really gets A for his maths. Speaking of tuition, i not only give, i receive!! My cousin gives me tuition!! I feel so embarrassing. I am having tuition lessons and yet i need tuition as well. What kind of teacher is that? Reflect, Elaine!! However, he teaches pretty well. To me, YES!! Perhaps we were talking and not doing much!! =PP

I now then discovered that WX is cute. He often reminds me to sleep early, must do tutorial, watch your steps... He treats me like 7!! Maybe his impression of me stays at this age since we grew up together.

Another tuition news. I am really crazy about tuition. I even introduced Hee to be a teacher and register herself under RK. Me? I am helping him to hunt students to keep his project running. Rk wants me to be under him. I somehow promised that i will next year but i forgot all about string. The fact that i will be even busier next year slipped off my mind. I suppose i should just remain as a administrative staff who takes up empty slots when it is needed.

This is a better job!!

An ANT

2009-07-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

I have never feel so disgusted before!! Can you imagine i drank ants today?! Goodness!! I feel so itchy down my throat!!

A question to ask, why is Elaine so dumb?
All because of the chocolate cake i ate!!!! I drank water after consuming and i suppose i left some "taste" at the mouth of it. I still drink the water after i saw trails of ants around my bottle. Who will know the ants were attacking my bottle?! After which i felt itchy and went to rinse the bottle.

When i opened the cap, i saw ants "strolling" the bottle cap!! I almost died!! TK still console me by telling me that i would not die after taking in ants!!

One word to sum the story,

TRAUMATISE

Thurday's timetable

2009-07-10T12:39:00.002+08:00

Elaine's daddy is back!! He bought me something and claimed that it is for my birthday present!! In fact he was back on April and my birthday happens to be on March. In another words, he did celebrate my birthday. Then why buy present? i suppose he worked like mad!! He forgotten that now is July. He still thinks that is February!! However, it is still better than he forgets my birthday!! =)) I shall take the present as a reward for my enthusiasm for going to the airport after school.

Speaking of which, i want to thank GA for the dinner!! His treat!! The dinner was really nice though the place was not kind of appealling. Ordered 3 dishes to share and yet we cannot finish. Hee lost controlled. Kept on laughing and disgracing herself. But but, i was in this with her so at least she did not feel so left out!! =PP GA passed STUPID comments like he would have died if she was his girlfriend!! GA was embarrassed on train!! Not that difficult to spot that!! He plucked earpiece into his ears and pretended not to know the both of us!! So bad of him!! =PP

Yesterday's train was faulty!! Going to the east side takes longer than expected. This somehow created time for the three of us to talk about things. Was alone after Tenah Merah!!

Daddy was such a slowpoke!! His flight arrived at 2051 and yet he came out at 2130. Idled for 39 mins, looking like an idiot. Got home around 11 at night. Super tired!! Went out at 0730 and came back at 2300. What kind of hard life i have!! Luckily this doesn't happen all the time!! =)))

present presentation

2009-07-07T00:42:00.001+08:00

ELaine had presentation!! Hope she did well!!

I am too tired to write anything!! Brain has stopped working!! =(( Pictures shall do the story telling!!

hi 5!!

2009-07-06T21:44:00.003+08:00

I enjoyed my sunday!!! Church was quite fun and especially with someone else, it is better!! =)) Though we crapped around, passing useless comments and bullying each other i suppose the service was much enjoyed!!! Actually i wanted to thank d^2 for responding to the alter call!! however, i can't bring myself to say the word!! PRIDE!!! Need to repent!! BADLY!!

Went shopping with him and JY. Dine at LJS and he entertained us with his nonsense!! I love the nail painting part the most!! Someone was behaving like a sissy!! He is like browsering at girl's stuff!! Goodness!!

JY and i part with him later on and we proceeded to City Hall!! I want to make this big!!! CS that whatever you can think of, he was really harsh with words!! JY told him that it is a honour to wait for us and guess what he said, he wants us to look ourselves in the mirror!! Woah!!! I feel like killing him!!

For now, i shall post some very nice pictures we took!! I shall not put the unglam ones which are on facebook!! They are totally screwed!!

Motto for today!!! Once a bimbo, always a bimbo!! =PP

DBEN, DBAND, DBANG!!

2009-06-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

(copyright from the guys!!)

DBEN went on a sentosa trip!! First, we went Vivocity for a very nice movie,' transformer' Before that, we all dine at Carl's junior. The beef was thick!! Extremely thick and juicy i assume!! The burger is BIG!! This is one of the reason i didn't buy!! I cannot finish so i kind of 'steal' fries from my mates!!

I behaved like a pregnant woman!! I have cravings!! Craved for popcorn and nachos!! Anyway, i managed to satisfy my wants. As what i promised G, i planned to give him a praise on my blog but i suppose i don't need to. Because apart from saying my bag is very gay, he bullied me in the cinema. In fact, i am the one doing the bullying stuff!! =PPP

Took express train to Sentosa!! DBEN said my mood changed fast. I was high and then quiet and another. I wasn't intentional and i didn't really notice it. Tired i suppose. I have been like sleeping late and having lots of minor problems to think of. DBEN is really very good. They hear me nag and nag repeating the same story over and over again!! I find myself a pain sometimes!! Really like an old auntie.

Put that aside, we travelled from beach to beach, looking for a suitable place for our activity. The weather was bad. Slight drizzle cause moods to be dampened. My mood was already spoilt!! =PP

But we have to make ourselves happy right? If not, it defeats the purpose of coming out!! What could possibly do that?? Take photos of course.

Chee dak acting cute

Chee dak still acting cute!!!

We played with sand; throwing at each other, frisbee; treating other people like dogs!! So bad of them but they still got their retribution anyway. The guys had much fun instead of priscilla and i!! We only strolled the beach, having our romantic moments!!

Dine with the guys before we left the place. CD and i stayed near to each other therefore, most of the time, the journey left only both of us. Speaking of which, he said something funny!! Look at this picture!!

Which picture do you think CD is?

Answer is the middle one!!

CD proclaimed that he belongs to the priority people. Upon asking why, he replied he looks like middle person; the pregnant lady. In weak attempts, he protested that the pregnant lady is only someone who has a bag at her tummy. Not someone with child in her stomach.

He even demonstarted it!! Isn't he crappy?? =PP

Family lunch

2009-06-27T23:39:00.004+08:00

I had my family lunch on Tuesday!! So weird!! Tuesday!!

Anyway, we dined at swensen!!

I was the latest!! I had school in the morning!! Can't blame me too!! I don't think Tampines is my forte area though i am often lost!! =(( I was lost as usual. I mistook Tampines 1 as Tampiness Mall!! Kind of funny when i think of this now. How could someone be so blur and dumb??

My youngest aunt wasn't there and i found her in the toilet!! She was really very cute. Trust me!! For the first time in my life, i see someone breast feed with the nursery door open!! I still ask her, why didn't she close the door.

She gave me that innocent look and replied: " Can close?? "

Imagine those big round eyes i gave her, shock my head in disbelief!! She needs the room more than i do!! However, i know it better than her!!

Went back together with her and lunched there!! I suppose there was a crowd which caused the service to be worse than normal. (Swensen often provides good service!!! =]]) But i still managed to enjoy!! I think ASH out did give her mum-in-law and B insecurity!! She called back and photo!!

Baby do change fast!! See!! Isn't she different day by day, week by week?? =))

She is always love by me and all!!! =))))))

Happy FRIDAY to me!!

2009-06-21T00:00:00.005+08:00

Went for a movie with Vernon, CS, JY and TP!! We enjoyed Night in the museum greatly!! The cute cute roman soldier and the cowboy are really amazing!! CS was late!! Vernon and i went in first, JY and TP went Giant for potato chips. After i went in, i came out again to buy popcorn. Is a bit extra to go in and out of the cinema, i think. =PP

Anyway, i came back the same time as JY and TP, furthermore, the movie has not yet started!! I can say that i was early. CS came in halfway, i suppose he didn't miss much. He was stunning!!! SO GOOD-LOOKING!! Is that CS i see?? Haha!! =PP He was without his glasses!! Normally you won't find your classmate good-looking!! Moreover he has been with me for 4 years!! For the first time!!! I THINK THAT HE IS GOOD LOOKING. Make sure he read this and thank me!!! =PP

After the show, we went shopping!! Hunting down lots of shop just to get myself a suitable facial care product. Guys, i gave up!! I suppose I should just go for facial!! Why persist!!! It has been long since i took photo with JY!!! Although we attend the same church but i rarely take pictures with her!! For this time i had many!!

(NORMAL)

(JY is still normal; Elaine is making a fool out of herself)

(Finally, JY changes another position; Elaine changes her way of having fun!!)

Walk, walk, getting lost in shopping centres is really my forte!! I got lost when i was in Vivocity with Vernon. Perhaps i was too mad, drowning him in all my troubles i experienced!! Really so mad that i got lost!!! =((

Hereby, i pronounced that CS is very fickle-minded!! I have never stay inside a shop for an hour plus but i did it for CS!!! He was looking for a suitable present to get for his friend i think. All the presents he eyed on were so " Full of Love"!! Though he, himself proclaimed that he got nothing to do with the girl, but Vernon and i still made fun of him!!

had my super late dinner at 9!! Thanks to someone!! Had it in Burger King!! The guys were aiming at the 7 inch bread, they got it and munched it in displease!! I had my Swiss mushroom which tasted surprising good!! The beef blend together with the mushroom sauce, YUMMY!!! Stuff CS with my leftover fries and proceed to the MRT!!

Almost had CS beheaded for saying my bad!!! Lost my way with them but still managed to find my way out!! Visited Candy Empire due to the guys' request!! Before i forget, The three of us had a fun time commenting the price of the clothes we see together with JY and TP. So expensive!! =PPP

Trained home with the guys, chat about their new school life and after Vernon and i left the train, my true colour appeared!! I started to nag and nag!! Hope he doesn't mind!!

Isn't CS good looking??

I shall call this post off with this picture!! =PP

mindful, careful

2009-06-18T14:16:00.002+08:00

I ought to be mindful with my post and comments now. I didn't give a second thought that Ga will be here, reading through my article word by word. I bombarded a comment saying that G was idiotic and he nagged at me in school. He and his " it doesn't pay good to be kind" phrase, left me giggled in shame!!

Yesterday hasn't been a wonderful day for me in fact was one of my yukky day!! However, i am not going to nag here as i used to do!! Not worth my effort as many comforted me. BA trained me to look at the positive side instead of dwelling in negative thoughts. I felt that i disappointed him yesterday. I cannot achieved what was required of me. I suppose if he read this sentence, perhaps he would say; " is not me you disappointed, is Him" Quite good at mind reading!! =))

Put that aside, i managed to pray before i entered my coma.

Today was rather creepy. I was asking for directions from God and guess what. The exact same phrase popped out again. The same phrase i had difficulties in comprehending a few weeks and maybe months back. The phrase was spooky!! It crept me when i first read!!

It goes "... God has determined to destroy you..." I was thinking real hard!! Why?? Why destroy me?? I understand the phrase after i asked the second phrase. I guess i am physically with him but not spiritually. These are " invitation" for repentance and of course, go back to Him.

I got total freaked out and contact KH for help. We looked into the phrase that God gave him. From what i have learnt, the phrases he gave were normally gentle but as you continue down, read more and more, harsh words will pop out and give you fright and fear for Lord.

KH's was nicely written but as we read down, i began to giggle and laugh like never before. His phrase was very harsh, speaking that he was not physically and spiritually with Him. =PP

REPENT!! There it goes!! =PP

We then prayed for a solution to our situation. KH's was confusing, i don't know what He wants us to do, we interpreted that He wants to be with KH, to support him. Mine was from Song of Songs. About lover and lillies. KH laughed and reprimanded me to go back to the Lord while my lover is browsing the lillies. =@@

I suppose Lord wants me to have faith in the things i pray and have trust in Him which i failed to have. With Lord i think that i can do it. Like what BA said, when you feel tired or you feel that you cannot depend on your own strength, lift it up!!! =)))

Had my fasting session today but today i am a vegetarian. In the morning i was considering of making it today since i cannot feully control my meals. However, i decided to give it a try because God encouraged me so on and so forth. Surprise came for lunch!!! Had vegetarian food my aunt bought. Doesn't he works like this?? Fast and Good!! =PP

Lord,

i will return to you

I will try!!

Please lead me the way

Lord,

I will have patience, faith and trust in you=))

speechless~

Busy Friday

2009-06-13T15:22:00.003+08:00

Busy busy busy!!!

Elaine went out around 12 on Friday to attend a barbecue event at Newton with her class people. She was all well-prepared for the day!! She reached there around 1 and called G. G was idiotic!! =PP

However, i still made my way there!! DBEN went for swimming first, then karaoke, followed by barbecue. I gave swimming a miss as i didn't bring along my swimming suit, moreover, i had things going on after this.

Jit's chicken was yummy!! Perhaps my timing wasn't good, so the time i tasted it was cold and practically lost it's crunch!! I followed the rest to the karaoke room for some relaxing. The guys were not around, i suppose they enjoyed the swim!!

I somehow called the event to the end when they were having barbecue because i need to rush my way back to Kranji for investiture!! Jit was disappointed in my departure and i promised that there would be next time!! =PP

I left with N and she alighted at Adm. I was much pretty dazing my whole trip away. Got off at YT and bus to Kranji!! Saw a familiar face outside the school compound, had a grooming check before rushing off.

Same event continued, repeating over and over again, year by year!! Pictured with some of them but i haven't got some of them. Bid farewell with them and made my way to Lot 1 with Andrew!! He somewhat kept his promise he made just by singing a sentence or two!! However, i got my revenge by putting his unglam photo on facebook!!
(Glam-er one with Weijie!!)
(Picture with PRETTY LOVE!!)

Of course, i tasted revenge.

REVENGE IS SWEET, ALWAYS WITHOUT FAIL!! =PP

Supposingly, i was going to meet up with JQ. What is worse, he forgot all about the meeting. I cancelled it in the end, just like what JY wanted!! I dined with the bandies. Had usual stuff at food court. I was upset that i wasn't allow to watch movie, no choice but to miss it!! In return, i went shopping with JY. Bought 2 pieces of clothing to satisfy my mood. Went around night market, had ice-cream before riding home in her daddy's car.

Lord,

I feel so upset.

I broke my bottle of toner!!!

Why am i so careless??

Daddy,

Will i really get what i pray??

Misses~

ACHE!!

2009-06-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

Today was my second cello lesson and i finally learnt how to bow. Though i almost gave my limb to this thing but i still had fun. I was the one that is learning the fastest and i hope i can keep up the pace. My dear Elaine, don't be too complacent!! Cannot be!!

Bidding plucking farewell, now i know how much i miss it!! However, i can't play anything except for scales with plucking. All thanks to plunking, my muscles ache!! You have to lift your left hand to one position and cannot move. The right just has to keep on moving using your elbow and wrist. So tiring!!! May i be better next time!! =))

Lord,

i feel so tired.

What i desire?

I dont know

What i want?

I am not sure.

touchable; unreachable

Kranji's Concert!!

2009-06-07T11:40:00.004+08:00

I swing my week away finally, to welcome my first holiday i ever had in Singapore poly. Though it is a holiday, i still have to proceed to school for some project work. But what is the best of all, is to get myself relax!! How to do it? Of course is to watch my secondary school's concert.

The event was surprising short but overall i still managed to enjoy myself. Band somehow underperformed for the first piece but attempts were made to make it back to track. Their ABBA Gold was enjoyable!! Swings were felt!! Cool!! =)) However, i didn't manage to get any pictures with them. I suppose i could get some on investiture!!

I saw one of the Sec 1 who sucessfully remembered me which i think is a clarinetist. I somehow remembered her too!! She was quite adorable!! Her method of attracting my attention was to shout " CLARINET" I was stunned in the toliet!! We chatted alittle before she left with her clique and me, doing touchup!!

LK and i entertained ourselves inside the hall!! Evidences to prove!!

SEE!!! So dumb!!!

I didn't managed to take photo with ZD also!! I am so sad for that!! Nevermind,

JQ has done the cheering up part!!! =))

Back?!

2009-05-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

A post a week!! Isn't this idea great?? Elaine was really busy. She had piles of project need to complete!! Those projects are killers!! They kill you in just few seconds, giving you mental breakdown and sleepless nights. People, my break will start from 5th June!! Will post more, i promise!! Let me pass the Project phrase first ya?

Lord,

what is this?

The cool feel,

the calm and consistant pumping

What do i want?

EXACTLY!!

UNtouchable; unreachable

Deliverance

2009-05-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

As usual, i woke up early and made my way to church today. However, today's was not like usual service. There was deliverance today which make me freaked out. I was shocked!! People started to cry and scream. The whole atmosphere was so tensed!! I prayed real hard that Pastor Mike don't come near me!! I was so afraid that my darkest secret would be exposed. You can imagine i was shivering there, grabbing JY's hand!!

City Harvesters just "fainted" after a snap of Pastor Mike's finger!! Many went through that, many expression were exposed. The preaching was frightening. That was my first time i cannot concentrate. My brain was like in the state of shocked. Though it was kind of "finished", some people were still screaming and shouting. Before the service ended, there was salvation!! I went to salvation with Nat and JY. This made us skipped the deliverance.

When i came back from the backstage i was surprised.
"Why is there still a crowd of people? Salvation is over!!"
I asked around, hopefully a cell group leader. She briefed me on that. I want to go back to my seat but was blocked by the people receiving deliverance. Too bad for me!! All i could do was to stand there and worship.

I was stunned there with my eyes opened very big!! However, i still successfully made my way back. Stayed there a while longer than usual before leaving. I saw BA there receiving deliverance. He cried badly. D don't let me go near. I was fightened again!! To me, he was really that holy yet he teared so badly. Then Elaine? She was laughing like normal!! How could she? She got to repent i tell you!!

-Prayer in secret content-

touchable; unreachable

Cellgroup!!

2009-05-22T10:53:00.003+08:00

Thursday was a emotional day for me. I shall not pen it down. Why cling on to something that make you really down. No point ya?

Anyway, that feeling went away when i left for the last cell group i had. I am not leaving City Harvest!! It is just that there are bible studies on Fridays conduct by Kong!! To be frank, i prefer to have cell groups rather than bible study!! Speaking of which, i am having bible studies by daddy Ken!! I should be the one preparing refreshments however, Jenny did that for me!! Thank you!!=P I arrived there first and was early by 1 hour!!

Had games there with LY and the rest. The games were about to drive me crazy!! Not the games actually but the punishment!!! I was really like a joker!! Shall not reveal too much as well!! You want to know? Come join me!!

Then preaching by Karen!! This time round is about Holy Spirit. I had this feeling of winning lottery. It is like every sin i done before!! The only difference is winning lottery gives you a elated feeling but sin gives you that " okay, i am going to repent"!! =PP

Celebrated Karine's birthday before leaving the place with Karen. Elaine had a nice long chat with Karen and before we headed for different ways. We went to the petrol station to buy ice-cream and cakes.

Apart from saying that cell group made my day!! Why not i say Raine and Goh something made it!! I had a nice long chat with them before i went up to LY's place. Other than we talked alot, That young chap made me lost my way!! Can you imagine, he lives that and he doesn't even know the blocks. Raine made desperate attempts to help him out!!! Why? The photos will prove everything!!! =PPP

This is like a kind of amused photo for them to remember!! haha!! But too bad, when that gets into my hands, it will be a joke!! Haha!! Joking!! Don't get angry!!

To add on, Raine is getting cuter!! =P

(To Goh something: calling you goh something is not on purpose. I forgot your name!! hehe!! Anyway, you don't mind!!! )

Lord!!

I will change whatever you want me to

You have to stay with me, daddy.

Daddy,

fasten the steps of June

I want to see my love ones real soon!!

Touchable; unreachable

untitled

2009-05-20T21:52:00.004+08:00

I am lost for words!!

hmmm..
Brother,
How i wish i can always see you online!!

Our very nice conversation!!

He said he wont forget me!! I even boxed that up!!
GOR!!! Cannot lie to me!!!

Lord,

Ken daddy gave me bible study today

Though i was lost but i had great fun.

Daddy,

you know how much i miss Jiaying

I felt that today!!!

Father,

i miss Minyan and Shuqing too.

I haven't seen Miss Audrey Lee

and Miss Lim Leck Lee

for a long time

I don't mind looking at Kat's face again

I enjoy looking at Band

I miss him badly!!!

Daddy,

BRING THEM TO ME!!!

Let my love spread to them

and their love to me!!

touchable; unreachable

beat beat BEAT!!

2009-05-19T22:09:00.003+08:00

I am so tired!! I cannot imagine that i am home at 10!! Where did the time go?? Good question!! Speaking of time, JQ has problem managing it. I heard stuff from his teacher and i was like "he will get it from me" .=PP As his personal maths tutor, i forced him to do the questions real fast. I think he got stressed.

Can you imagine, we did till the library switched off all the lights forcing us to leave? Then JQ was very funny. He was like cursing me because i don't let him leave and his things were all lying on the floor. He had a hard time keeping!! Sorry~~!!

Babe was with us too!! First time i felt so good with both of them!! I feel like buying things for her but i could not think what to get!! She asked for basic needs. I will try to satisfy her of course, provided they are within my means.

To JiaQi,

Thank you for being a very very nice student. Thank you for treasuring me alot. Sometimes i don't feel that i am good enough for you, yet you didn't give me up. You still teach me maths when i forgot them. My dear, it is never too late to see the results. I know you are impatient, but trust me, the result is there. I believe that you will see it real soon if you SPEED UP!!! Do papers like how you did in the library. Don't stress yourself too much!! =)) Last but not least,
KOH JIA QI, I WARN YOU!!! YOU BETTER LET GO OF THINGS EASILY!! DON'T BE AFFECTED BY MARKS AND RESULT IN WHICH YOU HECK CARE ABOUT OTHER TOPICS. I'LL SLAP YOU!!!

To Nadia,

NADIA!!! Brush up your maths!! SHOW ME YOUR ENTHUSIASM!!! Nadia,must do maths wholeheartedly okay? Must concentrate. DOn't always play with your netball!!
PLAY HARD, STUDY HARD.
I know you can do it!! Must put in more effort!! Get stressed like Jia Qi. Before maths papers, DON'T YOU EVER DARE TO READ STORYBOOKS AGAIN!!!!

I think that is about all!! =)))

happy a month old

2009-05-15T00:11:00.003+08:00

All for now... Explain further in future..

hmm!!

2009-05-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

Peeps people, sorry for the sudden and long disappearance. I didn't do that on purpose. I was really very busy. I had works that piled as high as a hill!! What is worst is the IDEA lesson!! I have no ideas to present but i still managed to crack my head and produce 3 very lovely ones. I discovered something nice about poly is, when you think it is time to relax,
BOOM!!
There come 3 nice project work.

I had a nice cell group time today. Though i was in the refreshment team and i think i am going to stuck in there forever, My job was kind of easy due to time constrain. I had school till 5. BA cooked spaghetti!! It was awesome!! He said he didn't put any oil but still as good!! =))

Karen gave preaching today. She went on to something about names.
Examples,
Elaine= light; glory of god
Ken=handsome
Thomas= seeker of the truth
Benjamin= favourite child

I learnt something today. About FAITH!! I love today. Now i know something. Keep praying for something and GOd will give to you what you desire. Keep going, my faith!! =PP

Dear heavenly Father

You know what i desire

I am always praying the same thing

over and over again

Give me what i desire

Lord,

I know you are always with me

I was dumb

to ask you not to leave me.

Now i know you will never.

Just a game of Hide and Seek

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yippy yuppy

2009-05-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

I DID IT!!
I DID IT!!
I DID IT!!

I finally wish mummy Happy Mother's Day!! Mummy, i love you!! Mummy almost scold me!! She thought i am her son having extra lessons!! However, she recognised me and showed me concern about my voice!!
So happy!!
Of course, all the credits goes to Daddy Lord!! He gave me the confident and calmness!! Daddy, i love you too!! more than mummy of course!! =PP

I went to see the doctor finally. After 1 week of struggle, i decided to get it cure through medical means. I almost died indeed. The cough was really bad!! But now, with the medicine, i think my condition will improve!!

I went distributing today!! Had great fun today despite the heavy coughing. I got myself new clothing too!! 2 items at 10 bucks each!! Kind of cheap!! I set my eyes on a tube dress but i didn't manage to buy after much consideration. I don't have much event to make it of good use!! Shirt and pants would be nice!! The attire is going to skin off my ladylike character.

Speaking of which, DBEN changed me lots I speak lots of vulgarities these days. My cell members were like GOODNESS!!! Got to change that!!

Now i know how much you matter to me

Now i know how much i really love

My love will never fade

Always walk in your shadow

Always follow you

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voiceless

2009-05-08T10:19:00.003+08:00

What a nice present i got from my DBEN!! A priceless voiceless!! Now i cannot sing because i will sure crack into horrible sound. I had a bad time in cell yesterday!! I was like coughing real badly till my nose got blocked too!! LY and YM prayed for healing. BA said he is going to do that on Sunday. However, i am not going to church on Sunday!! Too bad!!

Mother's day is around the corner!! I hope to wish mummy Happy Mother's Day but i am afraid that she cannot recognise me. What makes it worse is my voice. What should i do? Daddy!! Save me!! Guide me!!

Elaine has been indulging with this drink. It somehow helped me. I had fever on Monday night and with this the temperature subsided. Moreover it cured my sore throat by soothing it!! Whatever it is, my throat is not painful just that i don't sound nice!!

Wish me a speedy recovery people!! I want to worship and sing praises to Lord!! =PP

long long weekend

2009-05-04T19:37:00.003+08:00

Labour Day ya? It was just a normal day for all of us, DBEN. Friday is always a off day!! However, i was bored to death. I should not talk about that since nothing happened. On Saturday, piano lesson turned out to be a facial class. I did play piano ya? After which i went for dinner with LK!! I miss her lots!!

The day was greatly lit up when we saw Eric who is DEAF on the right ear!! I shouted for him in LJS and yet he didn't hear me!! Anyway, i took a picture with him!!

LK and him very funny!! They are like bullying one another. Still involved me!! An example, LK said she wants to tell me a joke, then she said "ERIC". I was like what? All because Eric himself is a joke. That is what she said. I know it is kind of corny but i can't deny that there are lots of laughter. I cannot bear to go home!!! =PP

Yesterday had church. I told my cell members how i attended one of my lesson. "Daddy" Ken volunteered!! Had quite a fun time attending service.

I FORGAVE THAT SOMEONE!!

I really mean it, you are forgiven!! Months and i finally let go!! =PP
Lunching was not bad either!! Learnt stuffs!! BA and i set a target of 3.5 this semester. That 3.5 will increase by 0.1 every semester. Got to buck up!! I am really afraid of BA. Went on a car tour with Ken before going back home!!

God Father,

I will wait!!

I really will!!

I will wait for the day

when my prayers come true.

I know you love me

and you will not disappoint me

Lord,

that is my only stubborn

I promise you i will not have any.

Sorry for being naughty

unobedient

Let me love as what i want.

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Give it back!!

2009-05-01T12:33:00.003+08:00

Where do dreams and nightmares come from?

I had this very bad nightmare which made me teared badly once i opened my eyes. I shall not disclose what the dream is about. However, i start to dwell in it. I don't want the nightmare to come true. I don't want!!

JQ told me that dreams are sometimes given by God. What about this one? Is it given by God? JQ said God somehow makes you sure of who you really like by giving you weird dreams to feel the "pain". But why give me? I don't want any relationship for now!! I am not ready!! Why the heart wreaking feel? Why the pain that kills?
I simply don't understand.

I cried and called out to Him. Murmuring the usual stuff i tell Him at night. I asked and i pondered. Is the dream by Him? Or is it in me all the time? If He really gives me that, what is He trying to tell me?
Wait?
Move on?
I am in a mess.

Perhaps i shall do the same i usually do. Just wait!! Wait till i get a reply... For now, just GIVE ME BACK MY NIGHTS!!

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DBEN

2009-04-30T23:00:00.006+08:00

Hey yo poeple!! DBEN went for DBEN cup on tuesday!! It was kind of fun that day. Can you imagine the whole class went for a game after school? Very united ya? They all waited for me today as well!!! =PP

Above are the scores we played. I know i am quite bad with bowling. So bad with the throws and aiming. In order to prove that my playing was bad, let's compare result with CD, AJ and Moni.

See the differences?

In fact i was quite happy with a pass, which is a C6, 50 points. I was corrected by my friends that in bowling, the total score is 200. I almost cry!!! Doesn't that means that my marks will be divided by 2. I can score as bad as 41.

41/2= 20.1!! That is a U grade!! T.T To make myself happier, those who crossed 100 marks are people with special paper!! =PP

Getting ready!!

The whole bowling alley is ours!!! Muahahaha!!! =PP

While waiting for our turn...

THe guys were gaying around. Evidence shows that Cheedak is a gay!! =PP

Ajit!! Handsome look!!

Cheers!! Act cute but cute!!! =PP

Smile!!! =@@

Cheedak and Galindo acting cute!!! Galindo sure looks like a Garfield in this picture!!

Who is bigger? My head or the ball??? =}}

Cheedak sure won't get tired of acting cute!!!

Elaine in action!! This picture is sure ugly!! Anyway, the ball went into the drain. =((

THe three pretties before they left. They left the place early. =((

This picture shall call the post off!!! =PP

(Pictures are taken from SISI!!! )

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Happy BABY Friday

2009-04-23T21:15:00.001+08:00

I was kind of happy on Friday!! I finally saw my dear HY!! This time round, i even dragged MY along with me.

(The ratio of 1:5??)

Shall just end here for time being... =P

ELaine's life in SP

2009-04-21T20:24:00.004+08:00

The life sucks!!! I am dreaded to go to school!!

I miss those times when MY and i had to make our way back to Secondary School to teach the Secondary 4s.
I miss those times when MY and i went to shop for clothes.
I miss those times i am in SECONDARY SCHOOL!!

With this point, i will link it back to why it sucks!! We make comparison!!

For the past four years, though i hate to admit that, but my dear teachers "spoon fed" us with the knowledge we need for exams. However, in this very big school in which i am going to stay for three long years, everything is on self basis. When you don't study and hand in homework, the teachers won't go around after you. In fact, the teachers wont provide you notes and they wont even spare time for you. In Kranji, Miss Kho would still chase you for homework, Mr Kat will print notes, Miss Lee will satisfy all the questions you have. Teachers are just like friends in Kranji, you can share things with them. In poly, you can jolly well forget about being friends with the teachers, they are like freaking old and their lessons are awfully boring.

Elaine's timetable for sem 1' 09

People, you may feel that i am free when you see this. In fact, i have more free time as compared to what i had in Kranji. What's worse, can you imagine spending an hour having tutorial with some people who are of the same age as my grandfather and just hear them talk? My goodness!! I almost died when i first experienced it yesterday. Although, it was just an hour lesson, that uncle almost took my life and i got to see him every Monday and Thursday. Worse for Thursday!!! 2 hours!! =(( In case, you guys didn't take note, i have tutorial and lecture with this man call Anthony Sim on Thursday. 1PM to 5PM!!! That guy better be a handsome looking guy, if not i may just sleep and die in the classroom.

Friday is my best day!! NO SCHOOL. Wednesday is great too!! With just 3 hours of lab!! I love alternate Tuesdays in which lesson ends at 12. It also happens to be my sleep long day. Perhaps i shall just concentrate on these few good points to make my life a little happier!!

I got my new card yesterday as well. Kind of can't bear to change it. I have been using that card for so long already. A sudden change is weird!!

I look freaking fat in the card!! That is what makes me hate it. =((

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Reflect!!

2009-04-18T23:01:00.003+08:00

I shall just post for what i had done today which i feel that is extremely dumb after i thought of it.

I am really not a good talker!! Extremely not good. That book doesn'thelp me much of it. I tell people to reflect. In fact, i should be the one doing all those reflecting.

Am i really unreasonable?? I always don't believe that. However, when two people said that, though you chose not to believe but your heart somehow clinged to the statement unknowingly. =((

Maybe i should not start suggesting stuff which i feel it doesn't turn out well. I should not tell others what to do what not to. Iam being so demanding. Such demanding attitude is negative. I should change!! Agree?? =PP

Orientation-- SIngapore's flag day

2009-04-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

As usual, i took my usual bus at 7AM today. Everything is just the same, same as what i usually do for the past four years. Suddenly, i freaked out!! What happened? Am i not going to school just like what i do? I am!!! However, my school venue has changed to Dover. It is no longer at Choa Chu Kang. I forgot all about the fact that i graduated. I am so dead!!

In the end, i reached school at about 7.30AM which is considered as early!! Today is also Singapore's flag day. Everyone held a tin can and flooded the whole area of Clementi. My group and i decided to do the donations door to door. I experienced bitter sweet today. Goodness me!! Imagine this, when you knocked door by door and yet no one answered the door because there is no one, how would you feel?
And this, when you knocked on this specific door and you are very sure that there is people inside because there are sounds coming from there. However the people inside pretended that they are not at home, What kind of stinking feeling will you get?

Running from the top of the building to the bottom of it is really tedious. Try running a block with 22 storeys. I became a dead meat. In life, you always need to spice things up!! What did that were,

Sisi's ghost stories
Doctor Ng's treat =P (That breakfast was definitely filling.)

I managed to earn $20.75 for the whole thing. I know the sales is a little terrible. Well, always look on the bright side!! Moreover, i put in effort!! =))

I had Freshmen party today but i decided to give it a miss and went back to Kranji. Kranji was utterly disappointing. 3 tutors to a student, in fact i still have time to accompany my juniors. Speaking of them, they are down. Luck doesn't seems to be with them ever since the SYF. Things happened which i cannot spell them out clearly. All i can say is,

BE MORE ALERT AND PUT IN MORE EFFORT

The idea of teaching:

TEACHING IS A BOTH WAY TRAFFIC WHICH REQUIRE BOTH THE TEACHER AND STUDENTS TO PUT IN EFFORT. WHEN ONE IS NOT FUNCTIONING, IT IS NOT A TEACHING, IT IS A WASTE OF TIME. [my reflection for today =))]

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band

2009-04-15T03:21:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, I CAN TAKE A PICTURE WITH ANDREW!!!

Alumni'09 for clarinetists!!

LOVE!!!

LYN!!!

Extremely early post!! I can't sleep!! =PP

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Baking FUN

2009-04-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

24/3:

What's with BAKING?
FUN with BAKING!!

This was left too long. I want to blog about this and yet i found out that i lost my USB cable!! That is really my life!! Without that, I can no longer upload the pictures carefreely!! Whatever it is, let's enjoy the pictures and set aside the troubles!

Caught minyan creating a mess in my house!! =PP She was helping out actually!! A very nice base for cheesecake!!! Digestive biscuits!! Yummy!!

(kind of unglam) A nice mix!!!

NOW YOU SEE IT,

NOW YOU DON'T!!

Pour everything on the base and chill it!! Leave it for 3 hours and more, there you go!!! DELICIOUS MANGO CHEESE CAKE

Next day for supper, we have Lemon Cheesecake.

Step one, melt the butter!!

Do the same for cheese

Give a nice mix, give it a little heat

The final:

sparkle a little sugar,

Cupcake!!

End of the baking journal!!=PP

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upgrading

2009-04-12T21:02:00.004+08:00

What an unusual title!! Upgrading; Where? Here in the head!! =))

I have been always wanting to upgrade myself after my O levels. However, due to some heart breaking reasons, i have not been doing anything productive. Other than baking and be some housewife.

Today, i just ran into this chance of making myself useful. As usual, i went shopping to get myself some pretty clothes for school and i just came across this book.

Being a Higher Mother Tongue student in my secondary school life. I assume this book should not be of much difficulty for me. Personally, i feel that i am kind of immature in terms of talking. It is proven!! BA wrote in my birthday card stating that i ought to be wiser and more positive. The positive word was UNDERLINED!!

Now, this is my time for turning the table around!! To proven that "stupid 1" wrong. I shall finish the book as fast as i could!! =PP

School is starting tomorrow!! Orientation to be specific, this book will come in handy in subway. My heart is rather heavy. The opening of school did not make my mood a little happier. I am so not looking for it!! It somehow clashed with my "fixed" lifestyle. I cannot go back to school on Thursday, just because of some self-claimed freshmen party. Hope that i will not feel odd in there. =((

I miss all my tutees and not to forget, those tutors who fought together with me!!

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Baby boost!!

2009-04-11T23:54:00.004+08:00

I saw the little one finally!! My aunt claimed that she is the biggest in the nursery. That was so bad of her!! I was not outside the room peeping in, looking at all the babies so i could not conclude her size. Basically, i don't think she is really that bad.

Weighing of 3.475kg, her mummy has great difficulties getting her out of her tummy. Mummy received cesarean in order to get her out, causing mummy to limp from a place to another despite of the short distance of a few feet. Mummy is really a very nice character isn't it? Treasure your mummy!! They bear pains starting from the day when the egg was fused. They deserve better treatment from all of us. =P

The breast feeding part was fun. Have you look at the baby when they were fed? Don't you people feel excited wanting to know whether the baby is taking his meals? I was dying to know!! My eyes just stayed on her mouth, giving her support!!! =))

Look at her cute face. She was actually crying, however, it looks a little like yawn!!

This is then a yawn!!

This picture shall call off the post!! =))

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You know i can't smile without YOU

2009-04-09T23:26:00.004+08:00

YOz!! People!! I love XY dearly!! Look at this,

From:http://twofour-zeroeight.blogspot.com/

She teaches me the blog shot too!! You know people, i am really bad with computer. Lest, you cannot see!! I copied it!! (Try to keep it in original shape)

Here it goes;

Elaine Ang:
Ehh, a fun and lovable person whom i know through the Secondary 3 camp.She is extremely crazy all the times,doing all sort of things that totally make me dun wanna recognised her as one of my friends.She loves to jump around the whole school and she will sometimes,out of nowhere,ask u a random question which makes me STUNNED.hahas.
She was the girl who sat besides me almost throughout my secondary 3 life and she was the one who introduced me to this drama called "Supernatural",and she will tell me every details of the story.She is definitely a good story-teller.hahas.

She's a good teacher too,u know,teaching me patiently physics,the subject which i totally have no talent in.hahas.anyway,if u wanna find a good seating partner,i would definitely recommend her.=)

She also surprised me by saying that I've got an independent woman image(Which i know ppl like JY,LJ and my family member will puke like crazy.but too bad,i accepted this compliment.)

I will always have an image of her sobbing while carrying a large roll of toilet paper(that time when she got panicky about her O level chinese).i'm sorry,can't erase that image.hahas.

Just wanna tell u,Miss 翁玮琳:
有些事情,真的不需要想太多的,有时候,太过于分析他人的举动和想法,会让你很累的.
有时候,真的做回你自己就够了.
还有,泪腺发达的你,不要再轻易掉眼泪了,
因为我不会在你身边,陪你上厕所,然后在里面大哭一场.
是时候,展现你既坚强又富有魅力的一面了,
让伤透你心的男人知道放弃你是他错误中最大的错误,失策中最失败的失策=)
加油!

Hehes!! Isn't she lovable??
Indeed, i feel like she is exaggerating the facts. I am really not as good as what she claimed i was. I am just a normal person. Just sometimes, I am hyperactive!!

Why?? All because of Xinying!! She always make me happy. If i am a great story teller, she would make a even better joker!! =PP
My schoolmates, I dare to say it out loud that my A maths was not good. I got F9 for that for two years. Xinying too teached me A maths. I sensed that she almost puked out blood while tutoring me. Poor her!! She taught me a A maths question which earned me 10 marks in O levels!! =P

About that toilet roll issue, my worry is not over exaggerating!! I really got very bad result for my Chinese!! I got over it anyway. My Higher Chinese got even for me!!! =))

I LOVE YOU, XINYING!!!

(Bold in RED; lest you claimed you cannot see)

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Say goodbye to tummy!!

2009-04-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

My aunt is giving birth!! I will miss her tummy but most importantly her of course!! She cannot come to grandmother's place for a month!! Some old tales passed down from generations to generations!! =((

Humans are weird creatures!! Pregnancy is the weirdest thing ever. It is kind of creepy that something is moving in the body of yours. Every kick, every movement is awesome!! I touched her tummy a couple of times. The movements feel just like vibration. You will see her tummy moving up and down if you are lucky. The girl inside is kind of naughty. She is smart in a way!! She simply don't move when she sense pressure on her mummy stomach. About that movement in tummy, i have no idea!! I will tell you guys when it is my turn!! =))

Lest you people not know, our stomach is a stretchable one. Though there will be stretch marks making it looks rather awful but the size of it is amazing.There was once i saw my aunt trimming her nails, trust me, that was funny. She tried to reach out to her toes in brink of perspiration just because her tummy was an obstacle, hindering her way. Whatever it is, i think she can wave goodbye to these days after today. =P

I am so excited as though i am the one being sent into the operation room. I promised myself that i ought to be the first few to take a peep at her.

On standby tomorrow, Elaine!!

Touchable; Unreachable

2009-04-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

You make me sure how i really feel
You make me sure what i really want
You make me sure who i really care
You make me sure who i really like
You make me sure what is weird
You make me sure in everything
Now i know, you are the one

Letter from me to you

2009-04-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

To: Kranji Symphonic Band

MY DEAR JUNIORS,

I know that there is this disappointment which lays in all of your hearts. I want all of you to know that this kind of feeling too lays in me as much as you do. The feeling of disappointment is kind of difficult to understand but please trust me my dears, i do. My Sec 4s, do you still remember the time, two years back, when we got the result? I cried very badly, worse than all of you did on Friday. The purpose of this is to encourage you.

ALL OF YOU REALLY DID A GREAT JOB.

Many may not know this but i really do feel like tearing when you were on the big and bright stage. Every squeak from the clarinets almost torn me apart. Every mistake made almost made my heart stopped. You know, when i saw this man in red cap shaking his head when you were performing, i feel like slapping his head and make him headless.

(LOVE TO SHAKE A LOT RIGHT?? GO HOME AND SHAKE ALL YOU WANT!!!)

The performance was great!! Really great. I recorded the pieces down and i would want that overture number 1 to be my ringing tone if i have record the piece nicely.

The sound was impressive!!!

The part where the brasses raised their instruments was magnificence!!

The whole thing looked grand.

Everything went well!

Silver is just a mistake.

A huge one.

However, what is good about life is that everything came in not only just a chance. Although this is the only chance for this and next year but my darlings, you still have 2011!!!

My sec 2s and some of my sec 3s, try it again.

Sec 4s and Sec 3s, impact the skills to them. Let them complete the mission for you.

My dear majors, Zhenyi and Peisi. You did your best!!

Babe, i saw your effort!! Don't cry anymore can?? For the first time i feel really helpless. Because you teared and you don't even talk to me like before.

My dear clarinetists, you matter to me!!

Your tears almost drowned me!!

When Peiwen told me that she cannot cry, my heart shattered. Even my juniors, my Sectional Leader had to act a brave front in front of my section.

I feel really very bad. It is just like i cannot even do anything to make them happy. Every drop of tears are so precious and yet i cannot even catch it.

YOU DID WELL, YOU REALLY DID. HOW CAN I SAY IT TO MAKE YOU CONVINCE OF THIS SIMPLE FACT??

My dear, you did well. Pick up yourself and start everything okay?? I hope that you can take in my advice. it is not good to dwell in this for too long. The future is still in your hands and you all still have a long way to go.

JIAYOU, KRANJI SYMPHONIC BAND

Love,

Elaine

4 April 2009

Do i still love you??

Depressed?!

2009-04-01T19:30:00.003+08:00

SYF is nearing. In fact it has landed its footsteps. That kind of feeling, hoping to get a really good result. To put it simpler, what i dread to have is that kind of disappointment. The feeling of" it just slipped past" which occurred to me two years ago. My one and only chance of SYF and yet i somehow feel that i screwed it up. Everyone said that it is a gold; a solid one. However, we were being awarded with only a silver. So what it happens to be a high one. It is only a silver. That kind of disappointment is really hard to describe. It feels as though you had something really nice but in fact it was only a illusion.

My junior told me that they can get a gold for SYF'09. The confidence is written on her face. The confidence that gold is surely their. I am so afraid. So afraid that the same thing may happen again. I don't want them to be disappointed like what i was two years back but i don't feel good to mark them down. They spent lots of effort!!! I feel that a third party. All i can do perhaps all is asked of me is just to listen and do nothing. But i can't. My heart still goes for it; the feeling just keeps going.

I somehow feel that my presence is not required in band. I think is really time that i let go of everything. Everything that i once possessed. Though it hurts but it soon fade. Most of a time i feel hurt going back to band. Everyone just do their stuff and i may appear as to disturb them and their activities. This is also why i rarely go up to the third level when i go back for tutorial. I don't know why, hope that i am thinking too much due to the free time i have.

Whatever it is, i am going to go SCH to support them. I did reserve a ticket for myself but Mr KKS feels that i should queue up an hour earlier before the competition starts so as to recruit more alumni!!! In another words, i have to be there by 1330 which is freaking early. In order to present myself on time, i need to leave my place by 1230 which is an hour earlier. There goes all my slacking time and sleeping time. I jolly well hope that it would be fun.

What seems touchable in fact is unreachable...

Staying pretty??

2009-03-30T22:57:00.004+08:00

Elaine and Wanlin met today!!
We were having fun time alone
despite we met like 5PM in this Monday evening.
In fact, we met up for the Ez-link card for Poly.
However,
we decided to dine out and also get our nails done!!
In order to save a couple of bucks for nail painting,
we shared our dinner.
In return, we had our tummy filled!!
A nice way to cut cost!!
A great return!!
There is this express medicure and pedicure that interests us
but,
it comes in a package
so we were left with no choice but to take it.
Hey pals!!
if you have been to lot 1,
you should have seen this very pretty and small nail outlet
on the escalator up to the second level.
GUESS WHAT?!
It is under the same management as the one in the interchange.
I was then telling WL that jokingly
and my guess was right.
My luck for these kind of crap is good isn't it?
We reacted funny in there!!
We spent lots of time choosing the colour,
as if have a whole day's time!!
We wanted our toes' colour the same,
a different coat for fingers.
WL chose red for her fingers; Elaine's purple.
BROWN coating for all of us!!
Next, after everything, we were sent to this room
which we had to be separated.
I almost died in there; of boredom
I was all alone looking at my nails
and damaged the coating a couple of times!!
The nail colouring took us lots of time
but overall,

WE STILL ENJOYED IT!!!

Another way of writing!! =P

WHAT, WHY, WHEN, WHO, WHERE, .HOW

2009-03-27T11:32:00.004+08:00

I missed these words!!!! It has been long since i attended a PROPER English lesson conducted by any of my English teachers. In fact, this post is not really about English.

Elaine is getting pessimistic!! I don't know why too!! It seems that i have lost all my confidence!! All of my friends started to cheer me up!! i know they are worried and i know they care. However, i cannot help still feeling that way.

"NO ONE IS PERFECT!!"

That is what everyone has been telling me. "You are not, so is the person!!! She may looks perfect but she is not" Vernon told me that a looked perfect person is not good!! Why? Because that person is not acting normally. That person is not being oneself!! That person just wants everyone to be in favour of oneself. I am not sure whether i took in Vernon's message but one thing i am sure of is, it did manage to make me a little happier!!

Is it me that i wont want to let go? Or is it i cannot? Something which is quite argumentative.

GUIDE ME!!! =(

what am i thinking
I am not sure
I just know that i dont like things to turn out this way

SHOP, SHOPS, SHOPPED, SHOPPING

2009-03-24T11:45:00.004+08:00

It seems that Elaine's pre poly life surrounds by all these words!! Give yourself 4 months of free time and other than shopping, especially for girls, practically there is nothing to do. The shopping trip continued with Simlin, who happens to be my long lost woman for she ran away with her 4A mates!! =PP Anyway!! We got together on Thursday!!! People, never keep two ladies away for too long, if not a terrible gossip section will start!! =@

We went for a movie "Race To Witch Mountain". I am not advertisting it but the show was great. Very thrilling!! Not to forget, SL was VERY IRRITATED by someone in the cinema!! That person sat behind me and was snoring throughout the show. SL made sounds and then the snoring sound stopped and which continued after a few minutes. A warning to all!! Never buy too uch food into the threate!! We could not finish the nacho and popcorn!! =P Waste food!! =@

We headed for Jurong Point for shopping. Through i go to that place once a week but in order to please her and not to spoil the very nice atmosphere, i agreed!!

I WANT TO LODGE A COMPLAINT!!!!!
People!! My woman is very "kind and understanding" lest you people not know!!! What she did?
SHE, THE EVIL ONE, BROUGHT A BAG WHICH WAS GOING TO SNAP!!! THEN!!!FEARING THAT HER STUFF WOULD DROP WHEN THAT HAPPEN, SHE STUFFED EVERYTHING THAT WAS INSIDE INTO MY BAG!!! THAT INCLUDED THE VERY SMELLY BOTTLE THAT SHE CLAIMED IS FRAGRANT.

To save myself from that very torturous misery, i suggested a bag hunt. That evil one still CONSIDER whether to get one!! >< In the end, we both got a bag; birthday present for everyone!!! After a little walk, a little gossip and a little shopping, we called the day off!!

I ENJOYED THE DAY EXCEPT FOR THE BAG SPOILING PART!!! =PP

SIMLIN!!! THE POST YOU AWAIT!! WHERE IS YOURS!!! =PP

What am i still waiting for?
A return?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

2009-03-18T15:19:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Okay!! This came a little late ya? But anyway it is alright. The birthday celebration dragged for days!! I shall just brief about it!!=}}

On Friday, 13th March!!

MY and i met up for shopping. We went Far East Plaza and we each bought a pair of shoes. We went rounds the place just to hunt for very "worth the price" shoes!! We found it in the end, GOOD GOOD!! We saw Michelle Chia and her husband-to-be there too!! She is tall!!! Very tall!! So is her husband-to-be. We caught JY there with TP!! They were dating there after JY's work. To satisfy MY, we went taka to search for chocolates!! Though we found nothing but the trip was fun.

WL's unglam!!!

For dinner, we indulged ourselves in Yuki Yaki in Marine Square. WL suggested there. In fact, MY and i thought of having our dinner in Sakae in Cineleisure where we ate the previous year!! You can imagine we were having great time shopping in big big shopping centres. That also explains why i am late for CELLGROUP.

I LOVE MY CELLGROUP TOO!! They celebrated my birthday as well!! JY bought me a cake. I gave birthday speech and the rest of the members were joking around making the atmosphere "higher". They bought me a pastry book and also a small little minnie mouse gift!!

SATURDAY, 14th March

I had piano lesson that day!! After which i went to the Singapore Flyer for a nice and comfort ride!!

Ready?

Marathon of photos coming up!!! =P

After whcih, my family and i had lunch there and we procceded to Marine Square and Suntec. My uncle bought me a bag which i can carry for school in Poly!! Why did we go to Suntec? As you people know there was an IT fair going on in Suntec and my uncle insisted of going in to take a look. We didn't go in in the end!! The place was too crowded and packed. We were like "hamburgers" even before we step in. The crowd was that bad.

In the night, my youngest aunt bought me a cake despite her big and heavy tummy!! =P

Sunday, 15th march

A church day again!! I baked cupcakes!! They were yummy!! =P I was late on that day but i still could make it for service. I WORE HEELS!! After service, the cellgroup went for lunch at Jurong Point. We went shopping and after that we went Starbucks!! Goodness!! I HATE COFFEE. Can you imagine i stepped in just because 4 out of 5 voted for it? Then BA, he suggested to buy black coffee and put in front of me? However, i survived through the coffee thing!!

I went home later and taught my cousin piano. Not to forget to mention!! I changed my phone!! It was a birthday gift as well!! =P

Monday, 16th March

The actual day!!!

That day was the worst!!! I went for piano on my birthday and after that idle in Mac!! I went Mac because SQ asked for me. Other than some birthday wishes from my friends. That day was just another normal day for me!! What is worst!! I have piano exams on 17th!! What a nice birthday birthday present from the music school!!! ={ To add on to the event, my dear band juniors bought me a cake and celebrated my birthday in mac for me!!!!

SQ took it out of boredom!!

I WANT TO GIVE SPECIAL THANKS TO ALL WHO SENT ME BIRTHDAY MESSAGES AND ALSO WHO CELEBRATED WITH ME!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!=PP

2009-03-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

So this is how my blog looks like!!

Elaine went Singapore Poly today for enrolment. She got a admin card and a laptop.

YAY!! I was freaking happy!!! I spent almost half a day there, visiting the campus, learning how to use the stupid laptop and not to forget, to look at my new school's very handsome seniors!! Hahas!! kidding ya? =P

What totally made me day was that someone praised that i was cute and friendly. I was elated!! it is quite rare that you will get the chance to receive praises from young ladies!! The one who said that was a girl ya!!

After the SP trip, i went for lunch with Sam and went home to take a really short break. I had to rush to Kranji for tutorial. I went shopping first with SQ and arrive there late. SQ should know why ya? My third and fourth toe CRAMPED!! Well, at least i did make my way there!! I still can walk there!! Practically, i was playing in school. So bad!! That was really unprofessional. How could a tutor play instead of teach!! I will repent!! =b!!

I REALLY MISS XINYING!!!

LOOK AT HER PICTURES!! Not to forget, i got scolded for taking her pictures!! not by Xinying but by this very irritating counter staff!! =@

I LOVE HER NEW LOOK!!!

i want to see you!!

LONG LOST FRIENDS!!!

2009-03-10T21:25:00.001+08:00

I am so happy today!! I met CS, SL, MY, Vernon. JY wasn't here but i know that there will be chances that we will get together!!! 16th march it shall be!!! (Raine, Xinying, Vernon, Jiaying, all of you know ya?)

I WANT TO SAY THIS!!!

I REALLY DIDN'T EXPECT SENG TO READ MY BLOG!! SO ARE YOU, VERNON!!! I WAS REALLY VERY TOUCHED WHEN SENG SAID THAT I WAS VERY SAD ON MY BLOG VERNON WHO EVEN BLOG ABOUT IT. I WAS TOUCHED!!! I MEAN IT.

TO THOSE WHO READ, YOU ALL ARE REALLY MY DEAR!!!

We went Pastamania for late lunch, around 3 plus!! I was laughing like mad due to Vernon's jokes again, as usual. We then took pictures there!! SL was hiding away for the camera because i want to take the picture Vernon, MY and ME!! I forced Vernon to be intimidate with me. We held the menu that is big to cover our face, leaving CS and SL there!!

After we finished our nice and filling lunch, we proceeded back to Kranji. WC joined us in school after which. We found some of our teachers and began to chat!! After school, MY and WC went another way and the rest of us went to Lot 1 with Miss Foo.

All i can say is that CS and Vernon were very good listening ears. I blasted Vernon's ears all the way to Lot 1. Although he did say that i look like a bimbo and also a flower vase but he is quite good in general!!! I blasted CS's ears on bus. We took the same bus home!! It has been very long since we lasted took a bus back together. I really miss those times!! CS said that he missed those times taking bus home with XY and me. I MISS RAINE TOO. The time when we waited for bus after night study was memorable!!

I WANT IT BACK!!!

Daddy's back

2009-03-09T11:35:00.004+08:00

I LOVE MY DADDY!!!

I missed him alot and he is finally back for a course or something and will be leaving again after 3 days. He thought of bringing me along but i got to enrol for poly on the 12th. I picked him up yesterday at the airport. Eunice was well-dressed, so was i!!

After which, i went to my aunt's place. There i went, playing with the dogs.

SOCK!!!

The three of them are cute. They get hyperactive when there are guests. They will go running about, jumping high and low. In fact, Sock is the most active one but i just grabbed him and put him on my lap. He dozed off after a few pats!!

PILLOW!!!

Look at his triangle face!! He was scratching himself when i took his pictures and he just looked at me.

I MISS THEM LOTS TOO!!

Am i just purely busy or i got over?

happy happy happy

2009-03-07T00:17:00.004+08:00

I passed my urine test!!! So happy that i did!! I failed that yesterday because i have protein in the urine. it is 3 positive i think. Very bad!! But today it is negative!! What happened? Elaine drank 1.5L of water before taking the test. Due to the aggressive drinking, Elaine's urine was perfectly clear!! GOOD!!! Not to forget, she was bitched by the nurses.

Elaine is very flirty these days. She fell in love with someone!! That is nice right? But that person is a girl, TP!! I can't say i fell in love with her but she did managed to capture my attention. She is different from her peers and furthermore, she looks like "her" to me. The mindset was contradicted by GL who confirmed that TP and "her" are DIFFERENT in terms of looks. To him, TP is prettier as compared!! Of course, Elaine is also prettier than "her". I am so happy. What about Elaine and TP? It is pretty obvious that TP is prettier because she is young!!! =P

Speaking of looks and looking at what i just wrote, I can conclude that i am really getting more and more bimbotic. Everything i wrote is about looks, looks and more looks. My peers, am i really becoming like that? My juniors said i behaved like that also. I am so dead!! Such a brainless freak. Perhaps i cannot even be a bimbo. I have no looks!!! =P

Before i forget, Elaine's msn nick is this: "Busy you:P ELAINE's throat itch"
Guess what Vernon said!! You so act cute. Cough say cough la. Say your throat itch. He almost make my heart stopped with his jokes!!! VERY FUNNY!!! Even my aunt also laughed!! =P Vernon, you did a good job man!!

Am i still the same person?
Am i still loving you?
You gave me excitement
But now, it's calmness

=(

2009-03-03T22:48:00.001+08:00

I don't feel well. Not emotionally but physically. I don't want this to be like my 15th birthday. On my 15th birthday, i was sick. I wish that my 17th won't be like that. I am having a running nose, mild sore throat and a slight headache. What is worse, my birthday is exactly two weeks away for now. I strongly believe my condition will last till that time. It feels terrible and yet i have to teach tomorrow. Two hours of talking and writing and then cell group meeting at LY's place. Luckily, it is at LY's place. If not i am so going to miss it.

I am now confused. What is happy? I think i am happy but the people around me feels that i am not. Am i really happy or it is just hallucination? I am not sure. It is just like some of the questions which i don't know.
What is feeling?
What is thinking?
Are they the same or they just appear to be the same? I don't know the answer. I seems to be uncertain about things which are like a piece of cake to me in the past. I don't even know what i want!! Everything seems to be the same and not important. I cannot make my own decision now. WHY?

Vernon, Minyan and i went back to school today. I do have lots of happy moments with them. Vernon, who is currently having deprive school days, cracked some very annoying jokes. These jokes never fail to bring laughter. However, Vernon informed me that these jokes don't bring laughter to his friends back in Anderson. WHY? Different upbringing, different culture. =(

Both of us then send Minyan back and we saw Alice and Wanxin. We chat like never before and we proceeded home. Tomorrow is my long day and not to forget, Thursday is my longer day!! Medical checkup again, maths lesson and dinner with Li Khoon. Busy!! How can i recover with such packed schedule??

Do i still carry a torch for you?

Medical Checkup!!

2009-03-02T22:14:00.005+08:00

Elaine went for medical checkup today with MY!! It was very fun!! I can say that this was the very first time i really laughed my heart out ever since i changed. I was very afraid of checkups!! SCARY!!

Elaine went for X-ray, eye check and blood pressure!! The X-ray was horrible. There was a nurse who was very fierce very fierce. She kept mumbling and nagging. Followed up next was blood pressure and eye check. Initially, it should be urination test!! I skipped that!! =} Will be taking it on Thursday!! In another words, i have to make a trip there again!!

I fear the urination test the most.
Can you imagine, you have to squeeze out some drop of urine even you don't feel like going to the toilet?
Can you imagine, you have to urinate in a cup and walked around with it?
These are so torturous!! Never mind about that, we shall leave the "lose face" thingy to Thursday!!

Elaine skipped stage two and went to three!! The waiting time was very long!! Elaine had a fun time talking with MY.=P

The nurses over that side are much more friendly. They smile and joke with the students, liven up the atmosphere. Elaine's blood pressure; LOW!! The nurse was shocked!! People usually have high blood pressure but mine is totally opposite. We had a conversation;

NURSE:Do you feel giddy after you turn in circles?
ELAINE:Yes.
(After which Elaine ponder, who doesn't feel giddy after spinning?)
ELAINE:Is there any other questions other than the spinning question?
NURSE:Yes. Do you feel giddy when you squat and stand?
ELAINE: No!!

Then eye test and height and weight! I fear height and weight as well!! I know very well myself that i wont hit out a BMI of 23 but my BMI is 14.
IT IS VERY LOW ALSO!! The nurse looked at me!! I simply just grinned and turned away. I have not been eating very well for the past few months!! My weight DECREASED. Can't blame me for that!!

The checkup ended with this,
NURSE:Do you have...
ELAINE: HUH?
NURSE: Never mind. Huh that means you don't have. You may go.

MY and i checked up my piano exam venue as well. At least i have a rough idea where it is. We went SHOPPING!! We pampered ourselves with a blouse each. SIMILAR PATTERN BUT DIFFERENT COLOUR!! It has been long since i go for shopping. A relaxation for me!! The shopping trip continued with jokes, laughter and food!! We shared stuff like school's teachers. It was really so funny. My stomach suffered a short cramp!! Followed by MY's physical condition. That one almost killed me. I think i managed to attract people's attention by laughing like a mad woman!!
Can you imagine a 17 years old girl jumping and laughing like nobody's business?

MY bought herself a "jacket". (I don't know what it is!! I am very bad with clothes.) It cost her $19. It was quite a deal because practically, no shops offer it at such low rate. I was tempted by a long shirt. That was $10. A nice deal also but i missed it today. Better luck next time!! =P

IN GENERAL, I AM SO HAPPY!!

Is it correct?
Did i managed to get my smile back?

PROM

2009-02-28T20:41:00.001+08:00

This was shelved too long. I forgot what to write as well. I just post the pictures then!!! =)

WHY??

2009-02-23T22:14:00.003+08:00

I feel extremely lost. Seeing all my friends saying stuff about JCs. They all love their new school and class isn't it? I feel really sad. In fact, i am tearing now.

"Will they still remember the secondary school times?"
"Will they still remember me?"
"Will they even think of me?"
"Will they still make time for me?"
"Will they laugh and giggle with me?"
"Will they still gossip with me"
"Will we forever stay the same as we promised?"
"Will we still have things in common?"
"Will we still treasure one another when time pull us apart?"

All these weird weird thoughts start to haunt me. I don't think i am dwelling into those thoughts because i am bored or lonely. I sensed that i began to lose contacts with people in JC. I do not mean that they are heartless or something but we no longer have anything in common. The school stuff and friends.

Their school is not my school, neither my school is theirs. Their friends are not mine, neither my friends are theirs.

I have no confidence in keeping my friends. Browsing through their MSN nicks make my heart feels heavy. Talking to them hurts me more. They seem to be " not in a mood".

Where are those laughter and joy we shared? All of the happiness are gone because of hectic schedules...

HAIS!!!

2009-02-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

PIANO EXAM IS ON 17TH MARCH!!!

NEVERMIND, I EXPECT MYSELF TO FAIL ANYWAY. HAHAS!!! BUT STILL HAVE TO PUT IN EFFORT!!!

17th!!! One day after my birthday. I thought of playing on that day and yet i was scolded for having that kind of thinking. However, i think i can focus on piano. Why? I am schooless!!! =( So sad!! I doubt anyone will celebrate my birthday with me this year. Sounds very sad but that is life. Furthermore, i am carrying this " not looking forward to any holiday" mood.

Huge change in personality isn't it? >.<

BUCK UP!!!!

2009-02-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

Elaine is really slacking her days away!! Not good!! I have not been doing anything productive. Maybe baking and teaching Maths in secondary school but other than both of these,

NOTHING!!! TOTALLY A SLACKER!!! GOODNESS!!! BUCK UP GIRL!!! FIND SOMETHING TO DO!!!!!!!

OK!! LET"S LIST WHAT ELAINE WANTS TO DO FOR THE REST OF THE TWO MONTHS!!

ELAINE WANTS TO LEARN YOGA!!!
SPEND MORE TIME ON PIANO
GO JOGGING!!! SHE IS GETTING FAT!!! WITH FOOD AND ALL!!! =P
READ MORE BIBLE
JOB?! I DOUBT SO. TOO LAZY TO WORK!!! HAHAS.

I think that is all!! Will update if there is more!!!!

Pasir Ris?!

2009-02-05T09:06:00.002+08:00

3rd Jan!! The first barbecue for the year by my Sec 2A!! It was fun and i missed them lots!! I shall brief on the event since i had some unhappy memories so on and so forth. Okay, it was a nice morning and i hurried to church service. Though i don't always go for the Saturday ones but i went as i invited some of my friends along. Vernon was angry with me!!! I volunteered to help him and yet i back out. I am so sorry!!Vernon, I promised to help you no matter what. Arrange another BBQ soon!! =P

I was late for the service. I missed some part of the worshipping but generally was still alright. I saw Karen there as well. She was there because she had to go for voluntary work the next day. Then some commotion before we left. Not to forget,

A PICTURE BEFORE WE SEPARATED...
Jiaying and i trained to Pasir Ris for BBQ. I rang Vernon up to ask whether he needs food. I bought chicken wings and some items which i cannot remember. MY TREAT so as to "ask for forgiveness" .

However, i was bombard because i bought something which need to be seasoned before consumed. Thanks to Adeline who was around, managed to salvage the situation. The chicken wings became edible under the work of her hands.

Not to forget, the place was WINDY. It was like having a typhoon somewhere near the place. Look at the leaves...

The photos with my dear 2A...

After the nice and filling meal, some of the 2Aians went for a light game of Frisbee.

The little orange thing was a cat. It interupted our game and injected fear in some of our girls. I am also one of them!! >o<

Around 10, we took train back to Choa Chu Kang and we played card game in mixture of "truth or dare" as a punishment on the train. It was thrilling, very fun.

Look at the black glass panel. That was what SY used to peep at ST's card. Caught on pictures!!!

In a nutshell, it was a really nice BBQ!!! =P
In whole, IT WAS HORRIBLE.