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I don't feel well. Not emotionally but physically. I don't want this to be like my 15th birthday. On my 15th birthday, i was sick. I wish that my 17th won't be like that. I am having a running nose, mild sore throat and a slight headache. What is worse, my birthday is exactly two weeks away for now. I strongly believe my condition will last till that time. It feels terrible and yet i have to teach tomorrow. Two hours of talking and writing and then cell group meeting at LY's place. Luckily, it is at LY's place. If not i am so going to miss it.

I am now confused. What is happy? I think i am happy but the people around me feels that i am not. Am i really happy or it is just hallucination? I am not sure. It is just like some of the questions which i don't know.
What is feeling?
What is thinking?
Are they the same or they just appear to be the same? I don't know the answer. I seems to be uncertain about things which are like a piece of cake to me in the past. I don't even know what i want!! Everything seems to be the same and not important. I cannot make my own decision now. WHY?

Vernon, Minyan and i went back to school today. I do have lots of happy moments with them. Vernon, who is currently having deprive school days, cracked some very annoying jokes. These jokes never fail to bring laughter. However, Vernon informed me that these jokes don't bring laughter to his friends back in Anderson. WHY? Different upbringing, different culture. =(

Both of us then send Minyan back and we saw Alice and Wanxin. We chat like never before and we proceeded home. Tomorrow is my long day and not to forget, Thursday is my longer day!! Medical checkup again, maths lesson and dinner with Li Khoon. Busy!! How can i recover with such packed schedule??


Do i still carry a torch for you?