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A post a week!! Isn't this idea great?? Elaine was really busy. She had piles of project need to complete!! Those projects are killers!! They kill you in just few seconds, giving you mental breakdown and sleepless nights. People, my break will start from 5th June!! Will post more, i promise!! Let me pass the Project phrase first ya?

Lord,

what is this?

The cool feel,

the calm and consistant pumping

What do i want?

EXACTLY!!

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Deliverance

As usual, i woke up early and made my way to church today. However, today's was not like usual service. There was deliverance today which make me freaked out. I was shocked!! People started to cry and scream. The whole atmosphere was so tensed!! I prayed real hard that Pastor Mike don't come near me!! I was so afraid that my darkest secret would be exposed. You can imagine i was shivering there, grabbing JY's hand!!

City Harvesters just "fainted" after a snap of Pastor Mike's finger!! Many went through that, many expression were exposed. The preaching was frightening. That was my first time i cannot concentrate. My brain was like in the state of shocked. Though it was kind of "finished", some people were still screaming and shouting. Before the service ended, there was salvation!! I went to salvation with Nat and JY. This made us skipped the deliverance.

When i came back from the backstage i was surprised.
"Why is there still a crowd of people? Salvation is over!!"
I asked around, hopefully a cell group leader. She briefed me on that. I want to go back to my seat but was blocked by the people receiving deliverance. Too bad for me!! All i could do was to stand there and worship.

I was stunned there with my eyes opened very big!! However, i still successfully made my way back. Stayed there a while longer than usual before leaving. I saw BA there receiving deliverance. He cried badly. D don't let me go near. I was fightened again!! To me, he was really that holy yet he teared so badly. Then Elaine? She was laughing like normal!! How could she? She got to repent i tell you!!

-Prayer in secret content-

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Cellgroup!!

Thursday was a emotional day for me. I shall not pen it down. Why cling on to something that make you really down. No point ya?

Anyway, that feeling went away when i left for the last cell group i had. I am not leaving City Harvest!! It is just that there are bible studies on Fridays conduct by Kong!! To be frank, i prefer to have cell groups rather than bible study!! Speaking of which, i am having bible studies by daddy Ken!! I should be the one preparing refreshments however, Jenny did that for me!! Thank you!!=P I arrived there first and was early by 1 hour!!

Had games there with LY and the rest. The games were about to drive me crazy!! Not the games actually but the punishment!!! I was really like a joker!! Shall not reveal too much as well!! You want to know? Come join me!!

Then preaching by Karen!! This time round is about Holy Spirit. I had this feeling of winning lottery. It is like every sin i done before!! The only difference is winning lottery gives you a elated feeling but sin gives you that " okay, i am going to repent"!! =PP

Celebrated Karine's birthday before leaving the place with Karen. Elaine had a nice long chat with Karen and before we headed for different ways. We went to the petrol station to buy ice-cream and cakes.

Apart from saying that cell group made my day!! Why not i say Raine and Goh something made it!! I had a nice long chat with them before i went up to LY's place. Other than we talked alot, That young chap made me lost my way!! Can you imagine, he lives that and he doesn't even know the blocks. Raine made desperate attempts to help him out!!! Why? The photos will prove everything!!! =PPP

This is like a kind of amused photo for them to remember!! haha!! But too bad, when that gets into my hands, it will be a joke!! Haha!! Joking!! Don't get angry!!

To add on, Raine is getting cuter!! =P

(To Goh something: calling you goh something is not on purpose. I forgot your name!! hehe!! Anyway, you don't mind!!! )

Lord!!

I will change whatever you want me to

You have to stay with me, daddy.

Daddy,

fasten the steps of June

I want to see my love ones real soon!!

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I am lost for words!!

hmmm..
Brother,
How i wish i can always see you online!!



Our very nice conversation!!




He said he wont forget me!! I even boxed that up!!
GOR!!! Cannot lie to me!!!

Lord,

Ken daddy gave me bible study today

Though i was lost but i had great fun.

Daddy,

you know how much i miss Jiaying

I felt that today!!!

Father,

i miss Minyan and Shuqing too.

I haven't seen Miss Audrey Lee

and Miss Lim Leck Lee

for a long time

I don't mind looking at Kat's face again

I enjoy looking at Band

I miss him badly!!!

Daddy,

BRING THEM TO ME!!!

Let my love spread to them

and their love to me!!

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beat beat BEAT!!

I am so tired!! I cannot imagine that i am home at 10!! Where did the time go?? Good question!! Speaking of time, JQ has problem managing it. I heard stuff from his teacher and i was like "he will get it from me" .=PP As his personal maths tutor, i forced him to do the questions real fast. I think he got stressed.

Can you imagine, we did till the library switched off all the lights forcing us to leave? Then JQ was very funny. He was like cursing me because i don't let him leave and his things were all lying on the floor. He had a hard time keeping!! Sorry~~!!

Babe was with us too!! First time i felt so good with both of them!! I feel like buying things for her but i could not think what to get!! She asked for basic needs. I will try to satisfy her of course, provided they are within my means.

To JiaQi,

Thank you for being a very very nice student. Thank you for treasuring me alot. Sometimes i don't feel that i am good enough for you, yet you didn't give me up. You still teach me maths when i forgot them. My dear, it is never too late to see the results. I know you are impatient, but trust me, the result is there. I believe that you will see it real soon if you SPEED UP!!! Do papers like how you did in the library. Don't stress yourself too much!! =)) Last but not least,
KOH JIA QI, I WARN YOU!!! YOU BETTER LET GO OF THINGS EASILY!! DON'T BE AFFECTED BY MARKS AND RESULT IN WHICH YOU HECK CARE ABOUT OTHER TOPICS. I'LL SLAP YOU!!!

To Nadia,

NADIA!!! Brush up your maths!! SHOW ME YOUR ENTHUSIASM!!! Nadia,must do maths wholeheartedly okay? Must concentrate. DOn't always play with your netball!!
PLAY HARD, STUDY HARD.
I know you can do it!! Must put in more effort!! Get stressed like Jia Qi. Before maths papers, DON'T YOU EVER DARE TO READ STORYBOOKS AGAIN!!!!

I think that is about all!! =)))

happy a month old

All for now... Explain further in future..

hmm!!

Peeps people, sorry for the sudden and long disappearance. I didn't do that on purpose. I was really very busy. I had works that piled as high as a hill!! What is worst is the IDEA lesson!! I have no ideas to present but i still managed to crack my head and produce 3 very lovely ones. I discovered something nice about poly is, when you think it is time to relax,
BOOM!!
There come 3 nice project work.

I had a nice cell group time today. Though i was in the refreshment team and i think i am going to stuck in there forever, My job was kind of easy due to time constrain. I had school till 5. BA cooked spaghetti!! It was awesome!! He said he didn't put any oil but still as good!! =))

Karen gave preaching today. She went on to something about names.
Examples,
Elaine= light; glory of god
Ken=handsome
Thomas= seeker of the truth
Benjamin= favourite child

I learnt something today. About FAITH!! I love today. Now i know something. Keep praying for something and GOd will give to you what you desire. Keep going, my faith!! =PP

Dear heavenly Father

You know what i desire

I am always praying the same thing

over and over again

Give me what i desire

Lord,

I know you are always with me

I was dumb

to ask you not to leave me.

Now i know you will never.

Just a game of Hide and Seek

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yippy yuppy

I DID IT!!
I DID IT!!
I DID IT!!

I finally wish mummy Happy Mother's Day!! Mummy, i love you!! Mummy almost scold me!! She thought i am her son having extra lessons!! However, she recognised me and showed me concern about my voice!!
So happy!!
Of course, all the credits goes to Daddy Lord!! He gave me the confident and calmness!! Daddy, i love you too!! more than mummy of course!! =PP

I went to see the doctor finally. After 1 week of struggle, i decided to get it cure through medical means. I almost died indeed. The cough was really bad!! But now, with the medicine, i think my condition will improve!!

I went distributing today!! Had great fun today despite the heavy coughing. I got myself new clothing too!! 2 items at 10 bucks each!! Kind of cheap!! I set my eyes on a tube dress but i didn't manage to buy after much consideration. I don't have much event to make it of good use!! Shirt and pants would be nice!! The attire is going to skin off my ladylike character.

Speaking of which, DBEN changed me lots I speak lots of vulgarities these days. My cell members were like GOODNESS!!! Got to change that!!

Now i know how much you matter to me

Now i know how much i really love

My love will never fade

Always walk in your shadow

Always follow you

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voiceless

What a nice present i got from my DBEN!! A priceless voiceless!! Now i cannot sing because i will sure crack into horrible sound. I had a bad time in cell yesterday!! I was like coughing real badly till my nose got blocked too!! LY and YM prayed for healing. BA said he is going to do that on Sunday. However, i am not going to church on Sunday!! Too bad!!

Mother's day is around the corner!! I hope to wish mummy Happy Mother's Day but i am afraid that she cannot recognise me. What makes it worse is my voice. What should i do? Daddy!! Save me!! Guide me!!

Elaine has been indulging with this drink. It somehow helped me. I had fever on Monday night and with this the temperature subsided. Moreover it cured my sore throat by soothing it!! Whatever it is, my throat is not painful just that i don't sound nice!!

Wish me a speedy recovery people!! I want to worship and sing praises to Lord!! =PP

long long weekend

Labour Day ya? It was just a normal day for all of us, DBEN. Friday is always a off day!! However, i was bored to death. I should not talk about that since nothing happened. On Saturday, piano lesson turned out to be a facial class. I did play piano ya? After which i went for dinner with LK!! I miss her lots!!


The day was greatly lit up when we saw Eric who is DEAF on the right ear!! I shouted for him in LJS and yet he didn't hear me!! Anyway, i took a picture with him!!

LK and him very funny!! They are like bullying one another. Still involved me!! An example, LK said she wants to tell me a joke, then she said "ERIC". I was like what? All because Eric himself is a joke. That is what she said. I know it is kind of corny but i can't deny that there are lots of laughter. I cannot bear to go home!!! =PP

Yesterday had church. I told my cell members how i attended one of my lesson. "Daddy" Ken volunteered!! Had quite a fun time attending service.

I FORGAVE THAT SOMEONE!!

I really mean it, you are forgiven!! Months and i finally let go!! =PP
Lunching was not bad either!! Learnt stuffs!! BA and i set a target of 3.5 this semester. That 3.5 will increase by 0.1 every semester. Got to buck up!! I am really afraid of BA. Went on a car tour with Ken before going back home!!

God Father,

I will wait!!

I really will!!

I will wait for the day

when my prayers come true.

I know you love me

and you will not disappoint me

Lord,

that is my only stubborn

I promise you i will not have any.

Sorry for being naughty

unobedient

Let me love as what i want.

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Give it back!!

Where do dreams and nightmares come from?

I had this very bad nightmare which made me teared badly once i opened my eyes. I shall not disclose what the dream is about. However, i start to dwell in it. I don't want the nightmare to come true. I don't want!!

JQ told me that dreams are sometimes given by God. What about this one? Is it given by God? JQ said God somehow makes you sure of who you really like by giving you weird dreams to feel the "pain". But why give me? I don't want any relationship for now!! I am not ready!! Why the heart wreaking feel? Why the pain that kills?
I simply don't understand.

I cried and called out to Him. Murmuring the usual stuff i tell Him at night. I asked and i pondered. Is the dream by Him? Or is it in me all the time? If He really gives me that, what is He trying to tell me?
Wait?
Move on?
I am in a mess.

Perhaps i shall do the same i usually do. Just wait!! Wait till i get a reply... For now, just GIVE ME BACK MY NIGHTS!!

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